Orchestrated Chaos

Goodbye for now...

2009-10-26T04:49:00.000-07:00

Its been almost a year since I last posted in this blog... Many things have already happened and I just had to leave this.

So I don't know if someone will get to read this. But just in case, I still have a blog. Its anonymous though. But just in case...JUST in case someone out there wants to sneak a peek at my other blog, just leave a comment. Or just don't.

:)

It has been nice.

Ciao.

Takipsilim???

2008-12-25T13:09:00.000-08:00

Rayver: "Wala na akong lakas na lisanin ka."
Shaina: "Di wag."

Rayver: "Ang iyong amoy ay parang bawal na gamot." (whuat??)

Rayver: "Ikaw na ang buhay ko ngayon..."

Can't wait to see how this is gonna turn out. Haha. What do you think?

Looks like Christmas...I think.

2008-12-11T14:38:00.000-08:00

Will this Christmas actually be a nightmare?

40% of my day (8:30AM-6PM) is spent at the office, 40% at my dorm and the remaining 20% can be equally distributed between eateries, shoot locations, malls, etc. The 80% part of my day that is spent at the office and the dorm comprises a big factor of my day to day life, right? Ok, so just where am I getting at?

Will Santa miss Christmas because of a hangover?

Again, the time I spend at the office and at home is more or less homologous (learning? hehehe). And its supposed to be Christmas Season already right? But in the 40% time that I spend at the office, and the other 40% at the dorm, I am not reminded that Christmas indeed is coming. This year, I am sad because we weren't given a Christmas tree to decorate the office para bisan gamay lang ta spirit of Christmas ba...wala gyud (*hint*hint*). And then at the dorm, they haven't started decorating yet. I doubt if they will though, I really don't know.

"Finally, I'm no longer JUST the red-nosed reindeer anymore! Bwuahahaha"

So this morning, I decided that I would put matters into my own hand. I gathered some Christmas RNB carols and played it on my music player for everyone to hear. I don't care if it loops around 40 million times today just as long as we could AT LEAST feel that it is indeed the season to be merry.

A sweet Christmas would be nice. :)

And then I decided to change my desktop wallpaper so there would be some sort of visual support to my attempts at letting them "hear" Christmas through my carols. Hehe.

Feels like home to me. :)

The pictures that I spread all over this post are my choices for the Christmas wallpaper. Can you guess what I picked? Hehe.

When will I ever experience a white Christmas?

Say what???

2008-12-10T19:18:00.000-08:00

This week, I finally paid attention to my lack of grasp of certain vocabulary words. In my line of work, I always have to feed myself with information so that I would not stagnate to just using the very limited jargon I have in my mind.

When I was still a student, I had this weird "hobby" of reading the dictionary and highlighting some words that I thought would be useful to me someday. I'd write them on my yellow pad with their corresponding definitions and then I'd try to write sentences using those words. I know, I was such a geek before. Haha. But you know what they say, when you graduate, you only retain a small percentage of what you learned from school in your mind.

Then they said that because there's no pressure to learn as much as when you were in school (tests, prelims, finals--helloo??), your brain starts to stop working as much as it did. Its not as alert anymore.

So now, instead of just going through my uber dusty dictionary (yeah its still alive, barely breathing but definitely alive...haha), I've upgrading my "hobby" to checking out the Word of the Day portion at www.dictionary.com.

Today, their word of the day is HOMOLOGOUS. \huh-MOL-uh-guhs; hoh-\, adjective:
1. corresponding in position, proportion, structure, value, or other property
2. in biology, corresponding in type of structure and in origin but not necessarily in appearance or function
3. in chemistry, belonging to a series where successive members differ regularly in formula, especially a series of organic compounds differing by multiples of CH2, such as the alcohols and aldehydes

A human hand, a bird's wing and a whale's flipper are all homologous structures, she explains, in that each represents an evolutionary modification of the same ancestral limb structure.
-- John Noble Wilford, But Will It Fly?" review of Taking Wing: Archaeopteryx and the Evolution of Bird Flight, by Pat Shipman, New York Times, 1/25/1998

But I think I know what you're probably thinking now. How the hell can this word be useful to your everyday life? Its not as if you talk about chemistry or biology all the time.

Well, that is my challenge. And here is how I can use it in my everyday life. I think.

1. Two years after graduation, I can probably say that my intelligence is homologous to that of a grade 3 student already.

or

2. Grabeha bai, akong kwarta ron ug ang kwarta sa lata nga gigunitan sa batang garugby homologous na!

Whatever.

How about you? Can you cite ways on how to incorporate the word "homologous" into your everyday life?

Friday night blues...

2008-12-05T01:33:00.000-08:00

I couldn't go out tonight (just like I normally do on Fridays) because there's just not enough cash. So I decide to go to the nearest internet cafe just to pass away the time and probably forget the fact that I'm just bummin' around on a Friday night.

But something's wrong with their internet connection so I couldn't really enjoy surfing the net. I decided that I'd just play Canyon Defense on miniclip but their connection is just to slow for me to even play a decent game.

So I decided to blog about my Friday night blues and I couldn't even type well because the letters in the keyboard are simply gone plus you have to press each key with a certain amount of pressure just so that I'd be sure that I do not get a typo tonight.

To top all that, I just loaded my sun after months of not loading it and the network is currently busted.

But its only 10PM. Who knows...My 11th hour savior might come and my Friday night won't be that bad.

And yeah, unsa kaha ako buhaton ugma? Mehn.

Twilight: My Verdict

2008-12-02T14:39:00.000-08:00

Before I was able to watch the movie, I already heard a lot of reactions from random friends about Twilight. Most of them were disappointed because it wasn't as good as the book. Well, for someone who has never read the book yet and for someone who's addicted to vampires, I decided to watch it anyway.

I think that it has been proven time and time again that the book will always be better than the movie...and I guess what people don't get is that the movie will only be the best compressed version of a novel. I mean imagine compressing 2-5 days worth of reading material into a 2-hour movie? Ofcourse it won't have all the meaty details that the book has to offer! So, it was in this thought that I consoled myself about watching the movie first before reading the book. For a change.

I had Gwen check the movie schedule on the newspaper because I really wanted to watch it from the beginning. I picked the time, 3:45PM, Cinema 8 at SM. When we got there at around 3PM there was such a long line at the ticket booth that I was afraid that we couldn't watch it.

Good thing Gwen brought our interns so atleast they got a head start on the line. (Our interns are from Surigao, imagine that! We just love them. :) )

They even bought this large popcorn to share with everyone. Awww... Very nice. :)

Ok so now, MY personal verdict. MY opinion.

I actually liked it. I'm not crazy about it, I don't super love it but I liked it. I like how Bella Swan was put into life in the movie. In the first chapters of the book I found her to be a bit weak (I haven't finished reading the book yet though), but in the movie, she seemed tougher and she did not cry a lot. Actually I did not think she ever cried in the movie.

I did not like how they did the make up for the Cullens though because although I get the idea that they should look pale white, they just ended up looking like they had too much foundation on. I don't know why...but hey this is just my opinion.

And then I expected MORE gore. Mehn. It was 95% love story and 5% gore only. I think there were only two biting scenes. So no vampires were in action most of the time. I don't know if its a refreshing thought or not...but you know, I'm a big fan of Underworld 1 & 2 and Van Helsing...I kinda expected something like that, but you know it wasn't so...It kinda is refreshing.

I love the lines...I don't know if majority of the lines were lifted from the book, because as of press time I'm still on Chapter 3. (I know...I'm only reading it in my PC --ebook-- at the office so I don't get to read it as often).

One thing for sure though, I like it enough for me to look forward to the sequel.

But maybe I'll change my mind after I read the book. Haha. We'll see. :)

Calling ALL REAL PEOPLE in REAL CEBU!!! RCTV wants you!

2008-11-24T16:54:00.000-08:00

We need people from ALL walks of life for our new spanking station ID. We need teachers, writers, children, moms, dads, students, firemen, traffic enforcers,disc jockeys, call center agents, photographers, graphic artists, musicians, athletes, survivors of calamities or diseases etc. etc. etc. to volunteer for our I LOVE RCTV station id.

As you know, Real Cebu Television is all about YOU my dear Cebuanos and the Cebu we all love. Its not just about the "high and mighties" of our society.

So if you think you are up for the challenge, and if you know in your heart that you love RCTV (Sige na gud, I know you do! hehe), just reply to this post or if your shy, just PM me or text me or call me at our office in this number: 4162202.

I need your responses before November 28 guys so I hope I get your support and response.

Thanks!

My new HAPPY thought =)

2008-11-23T16:42:00.001-08:00

Cheap French toast! My favorite breakfast is now available the whole day at Tapa King. :)

My new HAPPY thought =)

2008-11-23T16:42:00.000-08:00

Cheap French toast! My favorite breakfast is now available the whole day at Tapa King. :)

Forgive me but I just had to =p

2008-11-19T13:54:00.000-08:00

What do you say to a person who lost a loved one but won the lottery?

Seen at the launch of a local shipping line's new vessel. :)

Now we can say it: Thank God It's Friday because...

2008-11-17T12:55:00.000-08:00

...at TGIF, everyday is a Friday!

I've been "The Secret-ing" being able to go at TGIF when it opens but I got something even better! Apparently RCTV was invited to be one of their guests during their 1-day by invitation only opening.

On our way to TGIF :)

People were invited to come at different times of the day because there wasn't enough space to accommodate everyone all at the same time. When we arrived a line was already forming outside.

I even saw Jen from The Freeman. Yes she's the one responsible for having some of my entries published there. Hehe.

Before we went in, we were briefed by one of the personnels that we shouldn't expect the best service that day because it was some sort of a test drive. "Worst case scenario, you'll get your order after 2 hours." We were also told that we can only sit where the waiters would lead us and that we couldn't change tables anymore. Well, I could understand what with all the people and it being a test drive. At first when our waiter led us to the bar, I was kinda disappointed because I did not want to be seated besise each other, contrary to being seated across each other which would have been ideal. But as luck would take it, sitting at the bar was, I belive, the best place to be in when you are at TGIF.

When the waiters asked for our orders, I ordered their Jack Daniel's chicken. Hmm I wonder how that was gonna taste like.

While waiting, we were being entertained by a bartender who I later on found out was the BEST bartender in the world. This is according to the TGIF search for the best bartender in the world contest--that is.

Since there were only three of us at the bar that time, we were the lucky ones who got free cocktail drinks and those were the only ones that were not free that time! I got a bacardi-soda-lime cocktail. Ok, drinks before meals it is then.

After a few minutes, my companions' orders came but where was mine??? I couldn't complain because I have been forewarned. But oh well, when the food came, I wasn't that hungry anymore because of all the free NON-alcoholic drinks.

All in all, I had a great time. The people there were all literally happy to be working. Very energetic. Very hyper. But we'll see how long they can keep up theire happy faces. Hehe. I definitely will be back.

Thank God It's Friday is now open to the public (just last November 14 or 15) and they're located at The Terraces in Ayala.

Here's to trying...

2008-11-13T01:48:00.000-08:00

Murag si Teban na wala si Goliat.
Murag si Budoy nga naupaw.
Murag barbeque nga walay puso.
Murag Sunsilk na walay Creamsilk.
Murag Skycable nga walay RCTV ch. 36 (suuus plugging juuuud!)
Murag radyo nga walay Roch Herbal Capsule nga commercial.
Murag tambayan nga walay Redhorse.
Murag videoke nga walay mokanta ug "Crazy for you" o "My Way".
Murag skina nga walay Jolibbee or BDO.
Murag USC-TC nga walay nagtsinelas.
Murag ginabot nga way Sparkle.
Murag Sto. Niño Church nga waly gabaligya'g kandila sa gawas.
Murag balut nga way asin ug suka.
Murag Pasko nga walay mangaroling sa jeep.
Murag internet nga walay Youtube, Friendster, Multiply ug Facebook.
Murag nilarga ug Boracay nga wa nagdala ug camera.
Murag cellphone nga walay load nya 1 bar pagyud ang batt.
Murag banda nga nagtukar nga wala gyuy nasul-ob ug itom.
Murag Eraserheads nga wala si Ellie.
Murag ABS CBN nga walay Wowwowee.
Murag Colon nga walay tindahan sa mga Insik.
Murag Holy Week nga walay taw sa Bantayan.
Murag dakong selebrasyon nga walay letchon.
Murag advertising agency nga walay mahuyang (or Gay). (Naa ba?)
Murag guitarista nga di kamao motukar ug "Leaving on a jetplane".
Murag Sunstar nga wala gyud bisag usang dagway ni Gov.
Murag JS Prom nga walay punch.
Murag eskwelahan nga waly "Old Maid" nga maestra.
Murag pinoy comedy nga salida nga walay manganta ug manayaw.

Murag in-ana.

Kuwang.
Lahi.
Weird.

Murag ako nga wala ______________________________________.

Sa makatubag lang! :)

Kamo naa moy madugang aning "Murag ________ na wala'y/dili _____________"?

Searching for my muse (AGAIN)

2008-11-10T21:33:00.000-08:00

I had to be cameramanNA again this morning in an Aboitiz presscon because Mr. Bong "Sam Milby" Aller was sick with fever. Well, you know how presscons go. You see people from all the media establishments, you have polite talk, eat, ask questions and whatever.

When I was just about to pack up the camera, I heard someone calling my name. When I checked out to see who it was, it was Ms. Mayen Angbetic-Tan. I thought she had a Healthwise question (she's the host for our show, Healthwise) but I was quite surprised when she asked me a totally un-RCTV question.

Mayen: Queenie here is asking why you stopped writing for The Freeman.
Manna: Hi Ma'am! Lagi writer's block ma'am uy.
Queenie: Sige na you wirte. I liked the one you wrote about the mermaid.
Manna: Haha. Lagi ma'am, mura man to siya'g out of place sa The Freeman oi. Shock gani ko gi coverstory ninyo.
Queenie: Its for the young readers man sad. You write pa.
Manna: Sa ako raman tong blog ma'am. Nakit-an ra ni Jen. Sige lang ma'am try lang ko suwat balik. =) I'm happy you liked what I wrote.

Mainspire man sad ta ana oi. Haha. So far The Freeman has published three of my blog entries:

1. The Vampire

2. Payong
3. Major Mermaid Rant

I'm actually very flattered that they thought it was worthy of their space. Sometimes I wonder where I got the inspiration to write those stuff because now I cannot seem to come up with anything decent. Oh well.

Hay I hope I find my muse again. (Not because I want another entry published in The Freeman, but you know, for my own personal satisfaction.)

The MANna who can't be moved

2008-11-03T20:20:00.000-08:00

I know its the title of a song that talks about a guy who camped in a busy street with a picture of a girl clutched in his hand asking people if they saw the girl to tell her that he was waiting for her. Pretty extreme measure huh? Well its a funny (in a cute way) song but in this entry, I'm definitely not gonna be talking about me trying to do the exact same thing.

As a matter of fact I am doing the opposite. If you've seen at the top of my site, there's a widget that say's "I am invincible." Well I know no one is invincible. Not unless you're a God...but chances for that too are pretty slim.

All I'm saying is, at this point of my life, I'm tired of being vulnerable to every little thingiemajiggy that life throws at me. So I'm sort of making it my mantra. I'm the invincible Manna. The Manna that can't be moved.

Actually my parents also have a similar mantra. "I am not moved by what I see, I am not moved by what I hear, I am not moved by what I feel. I'm lifting everything up to God."

It's my way of toughening up my act and despite a few slips, it has worked pretty great for me. If things don't go the way I plan to, its not gonna be a big deal anymore. Its tiring to waste my time and energy on things that I no longer have conrtol of so why bother?

I have my God. I have my stars. I have myself.

So whatever it is that life plans to throw at me again, I only have three words to say.

BRING. IT. ON.

Theories

2008-10-29T15:38:00.000-07:00

Do you know that in one way or another we are all scientists? Each of us come up with our own personal theories and conclusions that we believe in so much that we think that they are universal facts already.

"Ayay, wa nasad nanagad. Suko lagi to nako."
"For sure gisaway nasad ato akong sanina, pwerte man jud niyang tutok gud."
"Magbuwag najud mi ani. 30 mins na wa pa nireply sa akong text ay."
"Nindot ni na day ron kay nakatug kog tarong gabii."

My friends always tease me for my "theories"...or as a co-worker would like to say, "Hypothesis nasad na nimo mans??"

But hey we are all guilty of it. In my case, I just blurt it out. Some would kill themselves first before they even admit it. But I guess we are all gifted with "scientist" minds that always come up with theories and conclusions about the most mundane stuff.

Pero theory ra na nako. Basin para ninyo, gabuot2 ra ko. Haha. Whatever.

*thinkingaloud*

system error

2008-10-26T00:27:00.000-07:00

Whoever thought of that Clusivol tagline was brilliant: "Sa panahon ngayon, bawal magkasakit."

I've lost my voice, I have cough and colds, my head throbs 70% of the time, I can't sleep, and to top all of that, I think even the simplest form of medication nowadays even makes my wallet sicker.

I hate being sick.

I wonder if my 42 days (and counting) without rice has got something to do with it.

So last night...

2008-10-24T14:44:00.000-07:00

RCTV private anniversary party. Simple pero makapagaw. Hehe.

Well, there won't be a "5&Alive" if it weren't for these guys. With the resources that we have, we've done the impossible. Good job everyone. :) Last trabaho nalang tonight. 80-TV at Formo. :)

You know its really bad when...

2008-10-04T04:21:00.000-07:00

1.) You go to the office on weekends because you do not have anything better to do at home.

2.) You look forward to cheesy soap operas on weeknights.

3.) You stop buying load because you don't get any texts, or you only buy load because you need it for work.

4.) You start downloading movies to put in your ipod just in case there would be nothing good on tv on days when you're just home.

5.) You take your time in reading a paperback novel because you've read everything else and you can't afford to buy a new one any time soon.

6.) You look forward to going to the supermarket because its that one time that you're out of your house aside from work.

7.) You buy a big fluffy pillow because finally, sleep is now a luxury you can afford because you've stopped going out.

8.) On nights you do go out, you already get tipsy drinking half a glass of margarita.

9.) You start looking forward to Mondays because finally, you coud start working out your vocal chords again--a body organ you havent been using for 2 days.

10.) You panic when there's a holiday because you know you get restless when you don't do anything, and you know that on that particular day, there will be nothing to do.

Love of work minus love life minus social life minus budget equals to MYLIFE.

And yeah, believe it or not, I got a big check on my 1-10 list because I've done all of that.

But you know what, its not that bad. Its not great, but its not bad. :)

I JUST WON A BET

2008-09-30T02:36:00.000-07:00

When I bet on something, I make sure I win.

Two weeks ago I decided to stop eating rice...and two weeks ago, Mr. Bong "Sam Milby" Aller told me I couldn't survive two weeks without rice. Thus the bet was made. I get a hundred bucks if I could resist rice for two weeks, and I'd give him a hundred bucks if I got tempted.

There was the problem of honesty though. What if I lied to him? Good point, right? So I told him that I will be completely honest with him. After all, it was for my own good. I almost got disqualified when I ate bibingka. But I did not know it was made from sticky rice so it was decided that I could get out of that.

This is Mr. Bong "Sam Milby" Aller. Behind him is me and Judith :)

Today completes my 14 days of abstinence from rice and today I got paid a hundred bucks. (But guess what, I'm not stopping until I actually see myself lose weight. haha)

Today we just made a new bet. We are going to buy a weighing scale. Use that to get my current weight, and use it again after 1 month to check if I'd lose 7lbs.

1 month. 7lbs. another 100 bucks.

Boy am I ready to win this bet again. :)

Now...I wanna be challenged some more so I want you to answer my poll. Do you think I will win the bet? Click2!!!

DRY SPELL

2008-09-29T02:48:00.000-07:00

I haven't been very inspired to do anything lately. Whether it was for a storyboard or a blog, I've really lost it. Temporarily, I hope.

Its not a good thing bya. In my line of work, I always have to be creative. I have to be an innovator. I have to always step-up and introduce something new. And its such a hassle when I'm having a dry spell such as this.

I was talking to my friend Kawewina yesterday and she said she was also having a dry spell. She's so into photography when we were in college and she always got really good shots.(She was even president of our Photo Society--to which I was her lucky VP.) Now however, she felt like she's "lost her mojo".

Hmm...how do you get out of a dry spell? Its sad when "talents" just stopped being talents for you huh.

In my case, its not just depressing, its also a hassle. Because if I don't get out of it fast, I am going to make one lousy plug/storyboard/blog entry after another.

I need to be inspired.

Dayem.

Which life would you choose?

2008-09-28T02:21:00.000-07:00

I'm living one of them. Care to guess? Hehehe

the evolution of 4b's

2008-09-21T01:29:00.001-07:00

4th year students, hanging out at Tequila Joe's

graduation pactice :)

Graduation Day :,)

4B'S FAVORITE POSE

tessa's birthday at kaona grill...fresh grads :)

i forgot the occasion...i think it was a mini reunion, probably 6 month in our first jobs

our mini reunion last night, Sept. 20, 2008, 2 years after graduation :)

Past vs. Present

Conversation:

Past: Thesis woes, curfews, studying for Theo, passing Mdm. Tabada's class, love life
Present: How to get a personal loan, the current economy, ENGAGEMENTS and marriage, love life (still)

Fashion Sense:

Past: Tshirt, jeans, sneakers, sling bag
Present: More girly, heels, skinny jeans, preppy, shoulder bag

Waistline:

Past: Normal.. (haha)
Present: 1-3 inches wider...haha (except probably for belle and tina!)

Hangout place:

Past: Baseline, Boss, Burger Machine, Angelica's, Brews
Present: IT Park (Plus paying for the bill i so much easier now...haha)

Gadgets:

Past: 3310 cellphones and the like
Present: cellphones from mars...an average of two per 4b

Choice of happy drink:

Past: Redhorse
Present: Mojito, Margarita, San Mig Light

Companionship:

Past: Fun
Present: Definitely still FUN

Thank for the time 4b's. :)

*Pictures from kawewina.multiply.com

the evolution of 4b's

2008-09-21T01:29:00.000-07:00

4th year students, hanging out at Tequila Joe's

graduation pactice :)

Graduation Day :,)

4B'S FAVORITE POSE

Define HAPPINESS

2008-09-14T02:33:00.000-07:00

I just received the best compliment today from my friend Josette (who celebrated her bday last sept. 11---happy bday sette!!!): "Hmmmm....you look fine today. You look HAPPY. Walay gabother nimo karon. Dili ka murag naay problema." (To think I had a ZIT on my lower left cheek! haha)

I don't know if I always looked problematic in the past whenever I saw Josette, but her compliment actually confirmed the fact that I was indeed happy with my life right now and that it actually showed.

No, I am not inlove. I did not get a promotion. My savings is still ZERO. I haven't slimmed down yet. I even came from a very exciting yet stressful 5-day shoot from Dumaguete and Siquijor (yes post about it later). I haven't been getting any sleep because of the frequent insomnia attacks. So why did I look happy despite the humongous pimple I have under my left cheek?

Maybe because I am at peace with my life. Or that there are no complications in it? Maybe because I've learn to trust God more with my life and learned to just throw away all my problems (if there were) to HIM. Maybe because I have finally learned to be contented with what I have.

But whatever it was that Josette saw...I'm just happy that she saw it. Because when she did, I was like..."Bitaw noh, happy man ko."

So what is happiness then?

For me...its CHOOSING to be happy even if there are no actual and tangible reasons to be happy.

Thanks for noticing Sette, because of it, I also noticed too. Weird. (Dapat pajud diay naay lain na makabantay. haha)

So how about you?

What's your definition of happiness? :)

Rock a bye baby just kept rocking!

2008-09-02T02:27:00.000-07:00

As of 9:30pm tonight, I have been awake for 18 hours straight. Woke up at an unusual time of 3:30am a while ago because I was feeling sooooo thirsty. So I went down, got a glass of water and went up again. Tried to sleep again but I couldn't. So I turned on the light, took a leak,tried to sleep again. Fixed my bed, swept the floor...and tried to sleep again.

But I just couldn't. So I had this weird desire to search for my writing portfolio (clips from our school paper and internship stint at sunstar). I searched my room and almost turned it upside down but I couldn't find it. I was sooo frustrated that I climbed to the upper deck of my bed to try to get a bird's eye view of my room. Still---I couldn't find it.

Before I knew it, my alarm went off. Went down, ate breakfast (which was unusual for me because I never eat breakfast since I'm ALMOST always late.) Bought laundry soap, went back to my room, went to the office and I was the earliest person there. Like 1 hour early! Haha.

SIX shoots (yes I had six freakin shoots today--of ALL the days) and 18 hours later, I am still wide awake. Not feeling a bit sleepy. Just scared. WHAT IS HAPPENING?

By the way--by "shoot" I mean taping for work ok. Not shoot as in maka-bai-high shoot. Haha. Just had to clarify, you might think I was on something illegal.

Nothing illegal. Just ANIONized water. Haha. Which I will blog about later on if I see the results. Been drinking it for 3 days only.

Now I am just floating.

I was sooo energized the whole day pagyud because of the adrenaline rush of SIX shoots. We had to shoot Sir Mike, Sir Johann--both for World Vision Campaign. Then Around Town, then Tara's Ultimate Living, then two Real Life episodes with Andrew Sarmiento and --ahem, Joe Vince Cañizares. Yeah exciting day. WATCH OUT FOR THE EPISODES!!! Only on RCTV Ch. 36 guys! :)

I'm about to end this blog already and I am still not feeling sleepy. Help.

i've been taken

2008-09-01T03:48:00.000-07:00

by TAKEN BY CARS. haha

have you watched the video of their song December 2 Chapter VII? CLICK if you haven't.

What music is on your mp3 now? :)

Friendster Shoutouts

2008-08-29T05:14:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I view profiles because of their shoutouts. If you've noticed, it is now a trend to have "emo" shoutouts in friendster. I have my own personal share of emo shoutouts. Sometimes a take a lyric from a song and place it as a shoutout. Sometimes I try to come up with my own--depending on the mood I am in.

My current shoutout is "Some battles are meant to be lost..." Cheesy? Why not. Hehe. I do believe though that there is an emo hiding in each and every person. And those shoutouts prove my point. Sometimes you see your tough, carefree friends sporting those emo shoutouts. And you realize--woah, is this really him/her?

Well the story behind my shoutout is pretty obvious. People always expect to win in all aspects of their lives. Ofcourse, who wouldn't? But failing is also inevitable. And there are many types of failures. And sometimes, instead of being in denial, it is better to accept things as they are. That way, you move on with your life and venture on another endeavor. And so the shoutout story---yeah, story of our lives.

Anyway here are a few shoutouts I copied from my friends. Pretty dramatic stuff, actually. Or I don't know, maybe all my friends are simply inlove. Judge for yourselves!

“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling inlove with you I had no control over.” --A classic case of falling inlove with a friend. :) I'm sure you have.

“I love you…I need you…to hold me every night” -- every night jed? hehe...joke lang. :) (ok, don't pretend your not envious)

“All I’m gonna have is all that you can give me And I’ll give right back Everything I have in me ‘cause nothing ever felt as right as this does right now.”-- True...every relationship should be give and take

"“Life lives, life dies. Life laughs, life cries. Life gives up and life tries..." -- Ug sa tagalog pa "Ang buhay ay parang gulong."

"im here without you....." -- Shoutout sa mga gibuwagan. hahaha

"it's all my fault!...i LOVE you,you HATE me... =(" -- scary. would never want this to happen to me

"even though we see one another a little often than no more they still keep those stringy thoughts of them attached to me for the sake of making me smile again. over and over again." -- reminiscing. :) we all do.

"MY LoVe FoR You iS a JouRNeY; STaRTiNG aT FoReVeR, aND eNDiNG aT NeVeR.." -- promises, promises... hehe kidding, but i hope you guys last. :)

"You cant break me coz it would only make me stronger.." -- AMEN!

"confused.." -- we all are sometimes :)

""in the lonely light of morning in the wound that would not heal is the bitter taste of losing everything that i've held so dear... i've fallen i have sunk so low i messed up better i should know so don't come round here and tell me i told you so.." -- awwww... :( nosebleed!!!

"..you're my favorite adventure..." -- so sweet. :)

"And I just can't pull myself away Under His Spell I can't break... I just can't stop ..." -- clearly enamored :)

"i was on the brink of disintegration and certain things have altered the landscape of my soul but there you are with your utmost love.. you lifted me up just when i thought i was about to lose the last strand of my sanity.." -- we all have our own personla saviors :)

How about you? What's your friendster shoutout? :)

Dr. Phil?

2008-08-25T00:27:00.000-07:00

Just think of the 6-month theory. Your heartbroken now. Your miserable. You think your life is over. But try to look at yourslef 6 months from now. Do you still see yourself being miserable? I don't think so.

I was hanging out with some "kids" a while ago who were experiencing "love problems." Naturally since they thought I was older and (a bit) wiser, they asked me for advise. They are 19 year old guys who had problems with their girlfriends. One was in a long distance relationship and because of that his girlfriend broke up with him. They've been together for 2 years and 3 months. One has an "insensitive" girlfriend. He had to do all the adjustments to be able to make her girl happy.

So I kinda tried to give them a piece of my mind, My advise to the guy who was in an LDR is on the first paragraph. From experience? Well, not really. I actually surprised myself. Where were all those words of wisdom coming from? It was weird that they saw me as an "expert", when really, those were just advises I gathered from collaborative experiences of my friends. I've had my own share of experiences but I'm definitely far--way way far from being an expert. Well really, who is an expert on love? No one really is right, especially when you are the one faced with the situation. Its easier giving out advise when you're looking at the relationship as a third party. But really, when you're in it, when you are actually the one in the situation, do you also see what others see?

I'm glad I'm single because I do not have to undergo the pains and emotional stress of being in a relationship. I'm glad to be in the position of the "adviser". Im glad to not be in their place of being heartbroken and all.

And then it makes me wonder. When the time comes for me to be in a serious commitment, will I remember all the advise I gave out? Being single and listening to other people's experiences gives me time to prepare myself for what will be in store for me when I become in a relationship soon.

Soon. God-willing.

As for now, being a 22 year old single female has its perks. But sometimes, I just wonder how the next chapter is gonna be.

So yeah, to 19 year old A and 19 yr old B, you still have your whole life ahead of you. It is not the end of the world.

How about you? Do you follow your own advise?

Yes, I am blessed :)

2008-08-21T02:35:00.000-07:00

The past few days made me realize two things:

1.) Some broken relationships have to stay broken.

2.) But some are also meant to be fixed.

I am thankful for the many great people that have took their time to make my life one of their stopovers. It is a known fact (cliche even) that people just come and go. Like it or not, its a thing that we all have to deal with. However the beauty of this cycle is that when certain people have to move along with their own journeys, a new set of people comes along and instantly refills their places. I clearly did not use the word "replace" because no one can replace anyone. They merely refill a missing area in our lives--and add some more even.

So going back to the two things that I have learned. Yup, some relationships (friendships/kinships/uyabships..whatever) are not constant. When you realize that despite every effort you put into something that will never work, you just have to accept that some things should just be left alone. Yes, some battles are really meant to be lost.

On the other hand, when a thing can still be fixed, it really can be fixed. I am happy with a recent reconciliation I had with a good friend. The silent war we had really had me bothered, but now after the reconciliation, not only do I feel better, I also feel vindicated.

Despite a recent re-letting go, I am also happy that there is also a welcoming back. God does work in mysterious ways, and I do not mind because I know that His plans are perfect for me. I've stopped questioning His will already. I've realized that once we surrender everything to Him, instead of feeling vulnerable, we become more invincible.

Sometimes it is so hard to look for the silver lining when all we focus on are the dark clouds, but looking at the brighter side of life is a hundred times better than staying in the dark.

Yes, despite the P8 fare, the weird weather, the war in Mindanao, the piling debts-- I am still blessed.

How about you? Have you counted your blessings lately?

Sick Cycle Carousel--not the song

2008-08-13T06:04:00.000-07:00

You are my ever recurring sweet dream that always ends up as a nightmare...and when morning comes and when I have awaken, it is all gone. It was after all just a dream....

But I am not awake forever. Dawn will come, sleep will once again consume me.

And you will visit me again.

In a sweet dream.

In a nightmare.

Whichever. Whatever. Wherever.

And come morning, reality will once again awaken me.

But I cannot also stop the setting of the sun. I do not have the power. The ability.

My krypton. My sick cycle carousel.

Another shop added under my window shopping list

2008-08-11T18:07:00.000-07:00

I was checking out People are People (and the *expensive* price tags on the clothes) and was just admiring the pop art designed jackets. I wanted to buy myself one but was also wondering if pink stars on white cloth would actually suit my 22-year old body. I decided it wasn't so I just went down and saw that a new store opened and they pretty much sold clothes that you could also see at People are People.

They had a lot of graphics tees and statement shirts and they actually had a jacket printed with big stars that actually seemed to suit my age bracket! I love the place! Their tees are actually much cheaper--around 200 bucks cheaper compared to P are P.

I especially loved these silver sneakers. I'm into anything metallic and this pair is now seriously on my wish list. Now I'm going chuvaness on you guys. hehe. I just couldn't take pictures inside so I just took pictures of their window display which was kinda tacky but still eye catching. :)

I love the tank top with the built in bling. :)

The store is called Terranova (I've never really heard of the store name before) and its located at the ground floor of the northwing right below People are People and beside Skin Food.

Come pay day, or whenever I will have money--that is, I'm sure to go there and grab those sneaks or that starry jacket. :)

How about you? What is your favorite store? (Doesn't matter if you actually shop there or you just window shop--like me! hehe)

Taming the addiction

2008-08-07T01:06:00.000-07:00

I haven't been blogging for the longest time and if ever I have...I only shared the bits and pieces of whatever it was that was happening. I am still not in the mood to blog but I am just pushing myself so as not to let my desire for writing die down.

You see, blogging used to be an avenue for me where I could express whatever it is that was on my mind. It kinda still is. However, I lay low for a while because I was beginning to be addicted to it--yes to the extent that I would do it during work hours and think of what next to post and what not. I just kinda realized that when one of my officemates pointed it out to me.

"Naadik naman ka ana oi. Nabuang naka."

Which was kinda true. Kinda alarming also because there was almost a time when I had to concentrate on something else but my mind would just keep wishing that I was in front of the computer typing away what was currently on my mind.

And yes, cliche as it it is but it is also true that too much of everything is bad. So after a brief hiatus, I'm back just to say that I'm still here.

I'm not gonna let this site just die a natural death because it is too precious. It is nice looking back at past entries and recalling the moods, the emotions, the thoughts that were going on in my life at those particular times.

Right now, too many things have happened in my life but yakking away about all of them would be a bore.

One thing is for sure. Everything isn't so swell and dandy but over-all, life has been good.

AND YEAH---watch out for RCTV's 5&ALIVE events. :)

RCTV goes "slightly" hollywood...

2008-07-29T19:06:00.000-07:00

American actor Soren Fulton who co-starred with Vanessa Hudgens in 2004 movie Thunderbirds was recently in Cebu and RCTV was privileged to be able to interview him under our talk show Real Life with host, Alexis Yap. (whew kataas sa lead...hehe)

We shot it at the Marriot and Alexis and Soren talked about his life as an actor and his active role as a supporter of the American Leprosy Mission.

Here are the photos. :)

And ofcourse...hehehe...

RCTV girls with Soren Fulton :)

Watch out for it this August! Only on RCTV Channel 36--We got you covered! :)

O diba bongga--plugging to the max. hahahaha...

Watch watch watch!!! :)

Part time camera man part time Sam Milby

2008-07-28T16:29:00.000-07:00

Meet Mr. Bong "Sam Milby" Aller. RCTV camera man.

Resident gwaping and mastermind of all things funny and Melani Marquezesque.

Be blown away by his charming punchlines that we here in RCTV has started making a list already.

To quote a few:

"What the hill."
"In fearness."
"You must be kidney!"
"Stop the meaning of this!"
"It burst into fishes."
"Giingnan tika'g I told you so."

One time we put Bong "Sam Milby" Aller (as cameraman) in the credits of one of the shows, our boss had it changed but he didn't know whether to be angry or laugh about it. Hehe

Yes, and to quote him again, "Believe it or not but believe it."

Major mermaid rant!

2008-07-15T03:18:00.000-07:00

OK, first of all...can I just say that we do NOT comb our hair with that human eating apparatus that you call "fork". Whoever that Walt Disney guy was he definitely had the wrong idea about our grooming habits--that is if we have them. I mean, helloooo we live in water like--all the time.

That cartoon had it all wrong! It is IMPOSSIBLE for us to have legs. Well okay, I know that was a fantasy or something but its wrong. Its giving the kids here the wrong impression about themselves. If you humans out there are like, dying to have bigger boobs and stuff, kids here nowadays want to have LEGS!! Just coz of that stupid cartoon! I mean, we're teaching them to learn to love who they are!

Well I, for one do NOT want to have legs. For your information, I am one of the fastest swimmers here in our place. I have won several swim track competitions! I made a record by swimming around the world in just three days. THREE DAYS!!! Believe me honey, NO ONE can do that with just legs!

Besides, mermaid fins are pretty. They change color depending on our mood. So yeah, just imagine if you worry about your face blushing everytime you see your crush! We have half our body turning magenta everytime we see our crush! Talk about major embarassment. Geeez.

And yes, speaking about crushes---EEEEW. Us? Falling inlove with human beings??? That was really funny. Me and my girlFINS were laughing so bad when we heard that that fake mermaid girl named Ariel fell inlove with a human being. Ofcourse not! Its like you human beings falling inlove with a martian! I mean, no offense, but seriously, your type of specie are so not our type! We like our mermen just fine thank you very much.

And can I just ask? What's the deal with those dynamite fishers? I mean, we pretty much leave you guys alone, what's the deal with trying to destroy our habitat? I heard that when you guys were in school you had fire drills and all. We had dynamite fishing drills in our school!!! Its like a super major thing here in our place when something like that happens. I was a volunteer for Aqualandia's Disaster Control Committee once, and believe me...many of our fish friends died and lost their homes! Our kingdom was blown to bits! We had to rebuild it again. It was our own version of 9/11.

Well, so much for airing all this out. I'm pretty sure none of you would ever believe this anyway. You're all caught up with your illusions of who we really are... Did you ever just stop and take time to really ask and observe? You human beings are a weird sort of species. You think you know it all, you think you're so intelligent that you just easily get away with creating stories about our people whom you do not really know.

I mean please, whoever is hearing me right now, please, the next time you make a movie about us, can you quit it already with the mermaid-falls-inlove-with-a-human being-plot? Make a movie about our swim track competitions! Or how about a documentary on what really happened to us after that major dynamite fishing tragedy?

There are so many other misconceptions about us...but I can't stay above water for long. My gills are already turning pale pink, and that is NOT a good thing. Til here human friend. The ocean awaits.

Later!

A free ride on a manic Monday =)

2008-07-13T16:39:00.000-07:00

So it was once again the start of the week and here I was quickly slathering on some butter lotion on my legs when the phone rang. I decided to ignore the first few rings because I was in a hurry and was in danger of being late. But when I saw from my caller id that it was Monika, (and Mon rarely called), I assumed it was important.

However Sun Cellular has a pretty bad signal in my room so I couldn't understand what she was saying. So the call got cut off. I pressed on with my business of slathering lotion to my arms this time when she tried calling me again. I was gonna be really late so I just chose to ignore it and continue to my other business of putting on clothes. Then I got a text message from her.

"Ate Manna, naa ko Ramos ron, padung ko TC, wanna hitch a ride?"

Ok so I heard today was the start of the P8.00 minimum fare and when opportunity (for free rides) knock at your door, you not only take it, you grab it and hang on to it for dear life!

I tried replying but dayem I got no load on both phones so I just finished dressing up and wished she'd call again, and fortunately she did.

Thanks Moniker! Heaven sent jud ka today wala jud ko nalate. :)

Btw, Monika is this really cute, petite, kikay girl who drives like a 13C jeepney driver. Harass kaayo... Hehe. I enjoyed the free ride Mon, thanks again! :)

short nothings

2008-07-11T00:49:00.000-07:00

" whispered you love letters in the air. To think of you as gone would be a mistake. But the roses are now wilted and the sounds have all faded.

I set the clock to 8 minutes past 11.

It is time to unfold my white handkerchief and hang it in my pocket.
Wherever the fairies took you, I wish you peace. "

-- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- --

para kang last set: "Last set nato...eto last set na talaga...isa pa, last na talaga to promise...waiter, bill nga please, tapos dagdagan mo din nga ng isa pang set sa bill, salamat bossing!..."

-- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- --

"Gimingaw ko nimo sama sa" line inspired by the present economic crisis:

"Gimingaw ko nimo sama sa akong pagkamingaw sa mga panahon nga singko pa ang pliti."

...

Ikaw, unsa man imong "short nothings"? :)

I did not know the present economic crisis would affect me this much!

2008-07-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

From P6.50 to P7.50 to gawd-knows-how-much...From P25 flagdown to P30 to FORTY freaking pesos!!!

I cannot take the nonstop rising of prices! Its insane! My groceries now can only be bought by INSTALLMENT! Because I cannot afford to buy everything I need in one grocery shopping incident.

And when was the last time I shopped? I cannot remember. I need (not WANT) to buy pants but I have been postponing it for weeks because there are other priorities that pop up.

I buy other necessary stuff now from networking companies because they can be paid in installment! I've learned to embrace now the power of Avon, Sundance, Natasha and what have you so that I'll have 1 month to pay for it.

I now appreciate the value of every cent I have. I'm sooo tipid its crazy. I could live with eating from my jar of Zarragosa sardines for days just so that I won't spend for lunch.

I LOVE shoots that have free food -- perks that come with my job. :)

I need a sideline! Call center is very very tempting but--naaah.

I am still learning to stretch a P500 bill so that it would get me through a week, but dayem stuff to buy just comes out of nowhere when you least expect it.

Now I'm complaining. I should stop this you know, coz its not making the prices of commodities any lower...

Inhaaaaaaaaale.
Exhaaaaaaaale.

Relaaaaaax....

HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT. THE LORD WILL PROVIDE.

Amen.

Kamo? Naa moy tipid stories to share? Tips sad diha beh!

I guess its time to buy some serious RAIN GEAR

2008-07-02T17:39:00.000-07:00

Correct me if I'm wrong but I heard from an UNreliable (meaning chika2 lang) source that 20 more typhoons are coming to the country and 4 of them will be major ones.

I guess we shoud really learn from what happened to Panay during TYPHOON FRANK and to the more disastrous MV Princess of the Stars tragedy.

Kalibo, after being struck by Typhoon Frank

The MV Princess of the Stars at sea, the tragedy causing the deaths of hundreds

What is next?

God help us.

As for me? I'm buying myself a really good umbrella.

If hearts could talk...

2008-07-01T03:06:00.000-07:00

Hi kaninyo. Ako si Mimi. 22 years old. Lumulupyo sa sud sa dughan, kanang naa bitaw dapit sa taas sa tiyan. Kanang--lisura bya explain asa ko dapit nagpuyo oi...hay pasensya jud ha, dili man gud ko maayo ug directions. Liwat man gud ko sa akong tag-iya.

Kaila na mo sa akong tag-iya? Kana siya ba, pataka lang gyud na siya usahay mosuwat. Mao bitaw ako siya giingnan na sa karong panahuna, ako nasad iyang pastoryaan. Sige lang siya starring dah. Sige lang siya sikat. Pastoryaa ko kay daghan jud kog angay iyawyaw. Daghan kay kog reklamo ug hinanakit na angay gyud nako ipagawas kay kung dili...susmaryahosep...ambot nalang. Mobuto tingali ko--ug simbako nalang kay dili ko ganahan mailisan!

Ayaw bitaw mo'g saba sa akong tag-iya ha...mostorya lang jud ko. Pagawas lang sa gibati ba. Usahay maglagot na bitaw ko ana niya. Pataka lang jud pirmi! Kasabot mo? Wala? Hay, in-ani ni siya.

Sos sayanga wa koy digicam dinhi. Magpakita sad unta ko sa akong mga picture pareho sa buhaton sa akong tag-iya kung magblog na siya. In-ani ni siya ha... Kana siya, nangabusar naman gud nako. Di niya gamiton akong partner na si Lando ba. Si Lando gud! Didto nagpuyo sa taas, sa sulod sa ulo.

Sige lang ako. Pirmi lang ako, ako, ako. Abuso na bitaw! Sa sige niya'g gamit nako, tan-awa di nako flawless! Daghaaaan na kaayo kog bun-og! Puno na kaayo kog band-aid, sus luod kay tan-awon friend. Daghan na gani kog trabaho dinhi, pun-an pagyud niya.

Ngano di man gud niya gamiton si Lando oi. Makibaw jud ko anah niya kung maunsa na siya kay naaaah, maapektuhan man sad ko. Naa toy usa ka panahon nga naa siya'y naila2 ba. Kaila kag iya jud ko gi pa jumping jack ug 1 million times??? Pagkahuman kay gipatambling2 pajud ko! Kung kita pa mo lagi nako makaingon jud mog "Luoya aning Mimi oi..." Lagi friend, luoy kaayo ko ato. Pero nalipay pud ko ato kadali kay sukad nailhan anah niya katong tawhana, mura bitaw kog nigwapa. Kasabot mo ana na feeling? Unsa gani na na term oi--kanang...b...blooow--blue--ah blooming (salamat Lando!). Blooming ba! Kibaw man ka ana na feeling, friend diba? So lipay kaayo ko. Bahala nag gipajumping jack ko niya ug ka 1million pero kay, nigwapa man sad ko.

Sus karon kay, naginamaw naman siya. Nahibaw-an ni Lando nga mura bitaw siya'g gibinuangan atong tawhana. Pwerteng pugong ni Lando niya pero sus dili gyud motuo. Ako gyud iyang gamiton--nya di baya ko maayo ug advise! Karon, kay klaro naman jud kaayo na wa naman siya gitarong kay naa naman gyud siya'y nahibaw-an...Wa ko kasabot friend oi! Nag ambak2 jud ko ug 65 million times! Kana bitaw murag kagawson nako sa akong balay pero dili pwede pero namugos jud ko mugawas kay huot na bitaw ang feeling. Lain na ba.

Ay gihilantan ko oi! Ganahan na gani ko pahospital ato pero murag OA ra sad ba. Pero di pud ka kaingon. Dugay kay ko naayo ato! Lagi friend! Cross myself, hope to die pa.

Dugay sad jud to. Murag kada adlaw nalang ko luya. Kada adlaw bug-at kaayo akong feeling. Kung wa ko nagluya, naghuot sad kay nihilak nasad ako tag-iya.Ay sus kung muhilak sad na akong tag-iya oi kay nah--murag way ugma! Murag tanang taw sa kalibutan namatay na ug siya nalang nabilin sa world. OH-VERRR. (rolls eyes*or atleast tries to roll a vein--whatever)

Di gyud ko ganahan anang mohilak siya kay mura kog ma claustrophobic! (nakat-unan jud na nako ni Lando, kana na word ba..hehe)

Maayo nalang gyud ug niabot ang panahon nga na ok na gyud intawn siya ug nakapahuay najud ko ug tarong. Unya kay wala pa gani pila ka buwan--tua napud siya! Sugod nasad akong physically draining excercise of jumping, contracting and palpitating!

Hay..usahay makaingon gud ko sa akong self nga...in-ana jud ang life. Kaanad nalang. Maglagot ko niya jud pero siya man akong tag-iya so mag-antos nalang ko niya.

Pero bitaw pinangga man sad nako siya...kada gamiton sad na niya si Lando ug makarealize sad siya sa iyang sala kay musorry man sad siya nako so ma-ok rapud ming duha.

Lipay bya ko ron kay niingon siya na hatagan ko niya ug bakasyon! Excited kaayo ko. Kani maynta dugay2 jud ko makapahuay. Sakto rasad para ug maabot na gani ang panahon na paambak ambakon nasad ko niya, makaingon najud ko na ready ko kay nakapahuay naman kog tarong.

Ay nakunsensya na nuon ko na gilibak nako siya'g maayo ninyo. Ayaw nalang gud saba ha. Ato lang ning secret ha. Sige, balik sa ko sa amo. Relax sa ko kay excited na kaayo ko magpahuay. Ay kabalaka, ug magkaunsa nasad na akong tag-iya, makadungog nasad mo balik nako. :)

Ayo-ayo bitaw ha! Kita kita lang nya ta. :)

i heart The Freeman =)

2008-06-29T17:46:00.000-07:00

DISCLAIMER: First of all, I did not submit this to Freeman. A friend who works there read this and asked if they could publish it. Who was I to refuse right? :)

If you haven't read the whole story...click this LINK. It was my blog entry last June 17, 2008. :)

JOBS i can never have...

2008-06-26T16:18:00.000-07:00

I'm bad with directions so I can never be a:

a. Delivery boy
b. Taxi Driver
c. Messenger

*I could be a jeepney driver because I'll only be following one route. :)

I get grossed out easily so I can never be a:

a. Doctor

b. Garbage Collector
c. Embalmer
d. Sewage maintenance pesonnel
e. Janitor that cleans CRs

I have absolutely no talent in drawing and structure so I can never be a:

a. Carpenter
b. Architect
c. Painter
d. Construction Worker

WHAT I WANNA BE BUT CAN'T...

1.) I want to be in Showbiz as a/an a.) artista b.) production assistant c.) segment producer d.) scriptwriter e.) researcher

...but yes I really do wanna be an artista and when I become sexy and beautiful already, I'll quit showbiz na. haha...just wanna take advantage of the free Vicky Belo experience.

2.) A fashion designer, i wanna be one but can't because hellooooooo---talent??

3.) Chef--i wanna be one but I don't know how to cook!!!

WHAT I WANNA BE, CAN BE, BUT WON'T DO IT FOR A LIVING

1.) Yaya! Because I love kids...but I won't do it for a living because obviously....I need to live also. hehe

2.) Photographer...because its just too expensive and there are sooo many freelance photographers already. But I really wanna be one...because I love photography...

3.) Professional blogger!!! Hehe....Just blog and earn! Wouldn't do it forever though because that is just way tooo boring. :)

How about you?

What are the jobs that you can never have?

Who ever expected this would happen to PANAY...

2008-06-23T14:30:00.000-07:00

When you're safe and ok, and you find out that your family is not THAT ok, what do you do? When Frank hit Cebu, we WERE ok here. I even went to soccer practice with my neighbors despite the strong winds. But we were good. No major floods. No water shortage. Just some fluctuation in the electricity but no blackout or whatsoever happened.

So when I found out (thanks to technology) through the blog of Ms. Titil yesterday about what happened in Iloilo, I was alarmed. I also read the bulletin post of my Aklanon friend who is now in the States about how bad it was in Aklan. I did not get any messages from my family because they were too busy taking care of everything there, what with everything that was happening.

So I texted my brother and asked him if he was ok (because he was in Iloilo). He said he was but that our house in Kalibo was not. I tried calling dad and mom but I couldn't get through. It would just ring once and I would get cut off. I was also thinking maybe they were low bat because there was no electricity. Finally I received a message from my dad.

"We're ok here. But we are all living like refugees in the second floor of our house. The 8FT flood ruined our 1st floor including our appliances. Two of our neighbors are staying with us because there houses were flooded up to the roof. No water. No electricity. Goods are sold on black market prices. A mineral water bottle that would usually cost P20 now cost P80. We just ate 1 day expired bread. No mass was celebrated at the church yesterday because it was flooded by 6FT."

And because there was no electricity, they couldn't widthraw from the ATM.

How would you feel? What would you do? I had a lot of questions in my mind. How did it happen. That was unusual in Kalibo. It never happened to Kalibo. 8FT??? HOW?

I was here. I was ok.

Good thing I got my comission. I went to the grocery and bought whatever it was that I could buy...rice, water, canned goods, noodles...even potato chips for my dad (which he requested). Our church here in Cebu also helped and they would send the goods together with mine via freight to Kalibo. We are trying to send as many as we can because my family will also be sharing it to other members of our church who's experiencing worst things than my family is experiencing right now.

I still did not know how it happened. And now after reading San's blog, I finally understood. All of Panay experienced it. Many others lost their homes. It is a great thing that my family is safe--I know they could survive the water and food shortage for now. I really do hope my supplies get to them in time.

I don't know when electricity and water will be restored...and when prices would go back to normal...but til then, let us all pray for Panay so that despite the calamity that they underwent, they would still rise up from it and be able to move on.

Let the blessings come and flow to those who need it. For all of us here who are safe and well sheltered, prayers would be our best form of help.

To those who were concerened, offered comforting text messages, for those who even offered cash (thanks...but maybe next time, I got it covered for now..hehe), for my friends in the church and my Nomads friends in Ramos who actually went to the grocery with me and carried the box of supplies---in behalf of my family, A MILLION THANKS.

Bagyo nasad sa Cebu...

2008-06-19T21:49:00.000-07:00

Kahinudmdom ko sa una, imo ko gihatagan ug payong. Ingon ka dili ka ganahan na magpauwan ko. Kahibaw man gud ka na tapulan jud ko mag-dala og payong. Hasulan ko. Bug-at sa bag. Kadaghan naman nahitabo na magdala kog payong nya moundang ug uwan. Pero ingon man ka dili ka ganahan mabasa ko sa uwan kay masakit nya ko. Ug sa tanan, dili gyud ka ganahang masakit ko.

Kahinumdom gyud kong mutext ka nako sa una kung mouwan..."O, ayaw kalimti ug dala imong payong ha..." Bisag dili pa ko ganahan, ako nalang dad-on. Ingon man ka. Patuo man ko nimo.

Pilang uwana napud ko naprotektahan sa payong nga imong gihatag. Payter sad diay magdala no kay dili man diay grabe kahasul. Mas hasul ang mabasa. Labi nag layo2 ka pag baktason.

Pero sa pag-abot sa usa sa pinaka kusog nga bagyo diri sa amu-a, naguba ang payong na imong gihatag. Kato pagyung panahuna. Kato pagyung grabe jud kaayo ang bagyo. Naghuwat kong makadawat ug text gikan nimo na dili ko magpabasa...pero wala gyuy naabot.

Nahuman nalang katong bagyo...wala gyud koy nadunggan nimo.

Guba na ang payong na imong gihatag uy, dili nimo pulihan? Niingon ka, palit nalang kog bag-o.

In-ana ra kasayon.

Ganahan bya ko ato. Kato gyud unta akong paborito sa tanan. Gikan gud to nimo. Pero ingon man ka, ilisan na to nako. Ako nang ilisan? Tinuod ka?

Hinuon bisag ganahan pa ko na kato lang gihapon ang gamiton...guba naman. Wala gihapon pulos. Dili gihapon magamit.

Hangtod karon, wala gihapon ko nakapalit ug bag-o. Pero naanad naman sad ko na mu-sulong sa uwan. Wa paka naabot sa akong kinabuhi, in-ani na gyud ko. Anad mabasa. Anad mauwanan.

Usahay makahuna2 sad ko, mopalit nalang gyud kaha kog bag-o sah? Pero dili lang sa tingali...Unya na...

Kinsa nasad kaha imong gipalitan ug payong noh? Sigurado jud ko na dili gyud to siya mauwanan. Dili gyud to mabasa. Dili gyud to masakit.

Sigurado jud ko ana.

Palihog kog ingon niya na ampingan iyang payong ha? Lisod na ug maguba sad pareho sa ako.

Makatilaw nya siya sa bagyong natilawan nako...

This is what happens when you're almost married to the PC...

2008-06-19T02:51:00.000-07:00

Help me breathe easier...

I
DROWN
with too much

i s o l a t i o n.

Too MUCH breathing space...

SUFFOCATES me.

f l y m e t o
y o u . . .

and REMEMBER the times.

LOST.

find ME.

i need to breathe.
i need to live.

I should stop facing the computer.
i SHOULD get a life.
makabuang--moULI nako doh!

Practice witing lang...hehe

2008-06-16T21:24:00.000-07:00

The final ray of the sun cast a long shadow as it quietly submerged itself into the sea. Alas, it is time for me to search my prey. To scourge the earth for the perfect bride for the night.

I can already feel it...porcelain neck smooth as silk...the thought just makes me shiver with pure delight.

Dark night after dark night, I pleasure myself with the sweetest juice this earth has to offer. From queens, to peasants, to high class city bit**es. The cream of the crop...French, English, Asians...oh sweet little Asians...Their caramel necks just bring utmost delight.

And then there was Carmella. Beautiful little Carmella with that horrid hibiscus tucked behind her left ear all the time. I don't know if she knew that she smiled in her sleep. She always did. My night is never complete without me looking at her, unaware, wandering peacefully in dreamland. Sometimes I wonder if I enter her dreams too. Can I also be the reason behind her smile?

It was dark and cold on the night that I found her...I was hungry...famished actually! I was ready to gobble up the little jumping bunnies in the forest but I stopped myself...Nothing but the best of Eve's descendants for the best of Adam's.

And that's when I saw soft pink curtains billowing from a small window. I licked my lips and knew that I have found my prey. I quietly jumped and within a split second, I was invisibly staring at the most peculiar thing that I have seen in my entire immortal life.

I saw her, lying on her belly, clutching a pencil, furiously writing something. But what blew me away were here eyes. Her large brown eyes that were brimming with bitter tears. Those were the saddest pair of eyes I have ever seen. I peered at the piece of paper that she was writing on…Sad, sad words…It had words that I did not understand… “Love”, “Betrayal”, “Broken Heart”…

And she just did not stop crying! I did not know what to do. I just stared at her…my thirst peculiarly vanished. Not until she was asleep was I able to come near her. A pink hibiscus clumsily fell from her hair. The piece of paper she was writing on was now wrinkled and blotted with her tears.

I was afraid to touch her. Afraid to cause her more pain than what she has gone through with the person she was writing that letter to. I was prepared to just leave, it was almost sunrise…and then I saw her smile.

Since then, I always went to her before I secluded into my own dark isolation. She was the only one I spared. For what reasons? I do not know.

All I know is that every time I see her, I am overwhelmed by a feeling that I didn’t know I was capable of feeling. I just wanted to protect her from whatever it was that caused her to shed all those tears that night.

And yes, perhaps, above all else…I wanted to protect her from myself.

And so I went on with it…every night…until her hair grew white and her wrinkles showed. It was always that same smile when she slept…And still that same sadness whenever I caughther awake. One time I caught her gazing outside her window, was she still thinking of that person she was writing to? I never saw her with anyone else. I only saw her with me…

Until I never saw her again. I thought it was just gonna be one of those nights…But all I saw was a neatly made bed with hibiscus flowers scattered all over her bed…

I grieved that night. Howled louder than the lycans.

Now, I spare no one. I have learned my lesson.

I am a vampire. No mortal should ever make me feel that way again.

I was tagged by joharra :) (SEE IF I TAGGED YOU)

2008-06-15T18:14:00.000-07:00

RULES:
A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

(joharra tagged me.)

1. What or who do you like best in American Idol?
Simone Cowell. :D--me too! andthe AUDITIONS!!!!

2. What do you miss most?
my kapetes

3. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
its lunch break so whatver it is that im doing right now is fine.

4. What was the last movie you watched?
sa moviehouse? when love begins...hehehe

5. What is one thing you wished you knew how to do?
play sports so that i'd be sporty! :(

6. What do you like doing the most?
blogging! reading, watching dvds, shopping, going to the beach

7. What's your favorite sport?
i wish i could play flagfootball, soccer and basketball...hehe

8. What is one thing most people didn't know about you?
people don't know A LOT of things about me...hehe (despite being such a lifeblogger...hehe. its not always what it seems guys)

9. What are you eating right now?
none

10.What was your section when you were in Grade 1?
wala man...basta afternoon class ko

11. Is being tagged fun?
yup :)

12. Have you learned something new today?
not much

13. What do you want to own right now?

a LAPTOP, an mp3 memory with big memory (doesn't matter what brand),a stylus fone! hehe
14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Joharra? I used to call her baby before because baby man jud kaayo siya oi. Having read her blog entries though, I can see that she's actually very deep. I love her photos also. Sometimes we can relate to each other through our blogs.

15. Are you looking forward to anything?
ummm....its nice to always look forward to something..magthink nya ko.

16. What's your favorite C2 flavor?
tropical fruits

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
i hope i won't

18. When was the last time you got starstruck?
when i last saw richard gutierez, michelle madrigal at LOFT last sinulog. hehehe

19. What type of friends do you like?
who'd be there despite my very complex moods and personality...crazy but deep...

20. What was the title of the song you last listened to?
Desperate People by Hillsong United

I tag:

1. MAWMAW
2. WAWAH
3. DANI!!!
4. BRO!
5. NO GENEDER XXX :)
6. BAI FILZ
7. YBE
8. SETTE

Happy Independence Day?

2008-06-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

If I was going to be a student again under Sir Nimrod Quiñones, I’d probably be having a blast answering one of his daily current events tests. I do not know though if Sir Nimmy would consider this as “test worthy” but here are the current events that had boggled my mind these past few days:

The death of Rudy Fernandez has been inevitable but still shocking. We have been hearing all sorts of updates about his sickness for the past year and we even saw pictures of Senator Jinggoy and Senator Bong visiting him in the hospital. But thinking that he’s Rudy Fernandez, “Da Boy”, many of us thought at the back of our minds that he would survive it. Who could imagine “Da Boy” actually looking weak and eventually dying? I guess that macho image of his will never be erased in our minds despite the weak, frail and dead RF that he is now.

And then there’s the alleged abduction of Ces Drilon and two TV Crew by the Abus. Scaaaaaaaaaarrrry! This is Ces Drilon we are talking about here! THE Ces Drilon! It’s almost as shocking as abducting Korina Sanchez or Kris Aquino! If it is true, it’s scary that the Abus are trying to portray a message that EVERYONE is vulnerable to them. As of press time, they said that it is not yet definite if she was really indeed kidnapped because no ransom has been demanded yet.

If Ces was really abducted, and if she gets out alive (and I do hope and pray that she does), I’m pretty sure that ABS CBN will turn her into some kind of hero and then Ces might write a book about her experience and Claudine Baretto might then portray her as they turn her life story into a movie. Diba?

In sports news, the Celtics-Lakers game has been really driving me and my officemates crazy as we are currently equally divided in terms of “patronage”. Care, Judith and me are pro Lakers, while Noel, Bong and Bastiene are pro Celtics. It’s crazy. Lakers just won yesterday so the standing is now 2:1. I’m scared. I feel that Celtics will win. L In fairness, I don’t really like watching basketball, but it’s my duty to Wawah to update her about it, so might as well enjoy it. Hehe.

I’m really feeling the harsh realities of our weakening economy now. Regular jeepney fair is now P6.50, gas prices are soaring high and even shocking was the increase in rice. What is happening to the world???

(Di nalang ko magrice oi para ang greater population ang maka benefit. Diet bitaw ko. Haha.)

Losing weight and losing money (NGANO MAHAL MAN MAGDIET OI?!)

2008-06-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

So last weekend, I ate lechon for two straight days. Friday because we went to an inauguration of the UV HRM building and Ms. Korina Sanchez was there. And then last Saturday was the birthday of Care Bear, so we went to Portofino. BOTH days we ate the sinfully delicious LECHON.

To top that off, I just recently found out that I gained 9lbs due to the eating sprees I had with my now (temporarily) absent kapetes.

So last Sunday, I made a conscious effort to lose weight--or at least start eating healthy. After mass, I went to Robinson's to buy food that would help me jump start my weight loss program. I went to the grocery and bought these stuff:

And here's how much I paid for it, including a small bottle of shampoo and a small tube of conditioner.

For some of you guys, this might not be expensive. But for ME, a minimum salary receiver taxi freak, IT IS POCKET DRAINING! To tell you honestly, it consumed 3/4 of my remaining money--so you do the MATH people. hahaha.

Then I had lunch--so I was feeling in the zone about my diet thingy so I decided to buy the small fruit salad they sold at Thirsty and shawarma from Leylams (which i think is healthy-ish coz of the tomatoes? stowpid. haha) and guess how much I spent for it all? P110! I could have eaten a 2pc chicken meal at Jolibbee for that price already! My gally its so mahal jud to be on a diet.

Ngano mahal man? Pwede di nalang ko mukaon para mudaot ko, makasave pajud kog money...hahah. (Ofcors im kidding.) So anyway, now at the office, I had to put a note on my "diet food" because the people here are too comfortable with each other so much so that they just get food in the fridge whenever they want to. hehe.

But yah know, I have to if I want to live longer (--and fit into the clothes that I'm dying to buy, but can't coz I'm also on a diet, and dieting is expensive for me, which explains why I can't afford to shop right now, which is also kinda good coz I can't shop while I diet so my concentration will be on the dieting part--am i making sense?).

BRO! I know you commented on my friendster picture (na naka 2pc geng!) where ACCORDING TO YOU I looked slimmer. Watch out. I AM MOTIVATED to reach that body again! That was only 2 years ago you know. So I can do it. Hehehe.

KINSA NAHAN MU-JOG KUYOG TA NA! hehe.

See you next year, wah. =) (highly documented for you maw...hehe)

2008-06-05T16:02:00.000-07:00

I've been saying a lot of goodbyes lately so I guess its just better to program your mind so that instead of saying goodbye, you just have to say, "see you soon!" (Learned that from mawmaw).

Backtrack a bit, as some of you might know now, I spent my summer with two wonderful ka-petes: Mawmaw and Wawah. Maw already left last week and it was kinda dramatic so when it was Wah's time to go, kalma nalang mi.

Well, there wasn't enough time for drama anyway because last night, we (or atleast SHE) was very busy packing. We started with going to SM to buy some last minute stuff before she left--you know like toiletries that would last for 9 months! Yep, 9 months. So you can just imagine how bloody the packing was.

Let the pictures speak for itself.

*My first assignment was to sort the toiletries from the medicine. =)

*Wawah's stuff

*65 million jackets and longsleeves coz its cold in Alaska wah sah?

*OK! Break sah. Time for dinner. Guess what's up for the "LAST SUPPER?"
***

NOTE: I've eaten so much Chinese food this past two months and guess what, we all gained weight. Wawah gained 15lbs and I gained 9lbs! hhaha. Kaw maw pila imong nagain?

*Judith fitting Wah's pants that she'll use for work. Sus kanang karsunisa PAGKADUGAYA bya gyud namo nahuman ana.

*First pa ni. Then gihabwa ni kay bug-at ra, then gibalik nasad, then gihabwa nasad then gibalik nasad hangtod sa gikapoy na si mikerly... =(

*I wrote her name and address on her bagtag because she assumed my handwriting was ok, unfortunately----hahaha, sorry to disappoint you wah! Atleast makaabot jud ug Alaska akong handwriting!

*Kal (wah's bro) was also helping out wawah with her techy needs. (Sorry couldn't help in that area)

*Tita C and her never ending moral support. =) Ofcourse do not forget the medicine good for 9 mos c/o Tita C.

* Iyang kinakusgan na jacket

* The most helpful of all: genggirl & gengboy! we just goofed around and took pictures the whole time. (and eventually fell asleep...sorry wah wasn't much help, told you i wouldn't help you...im so not good with packing. hadlok ko maka-sah. haha)

* Wawah so worn out already.... =(
Mangatug sa ta wah...
(Unfortunately, she was nauseous the whole time and wasn't able to sleep well, hinuon sad we only had 2 hours to sleep...tsktsktsk)

*THIS IS THE MOMENT

*On our way to the airport...

*Last PICTURE! Kay after 9 mos pa bya ta next magkita wah. (Wawah hubag mata, way katug...)

*Last glimpse at Wawah (so paparazzi-ish)

*Guess its just gonna be Tita C and me on our way back... Padung nami ani work. =(

Well you know wah, I guess I already had my peace with you leaving. So don't worry bout me too much, no tears were shed....YET. Hehe. Just take care, I'm praying for you and Mawmaw. Whenever its too cold or too lonely out there, just remember that diri pud sa Cebu, nagyawyaw sad ko na init na ayo kay dili na aircon akong katulgan. hahaha. bitaw wah, maw, you guys, i know you will be fine. Do not forget me ha.

I'll keep you posted. :) Balitaan ta mo kung kinsa madaog sa PBB, kung magbalik ba si Heart ug Echo ug kung kinsa pang mga mamalhin ug channel. Promise. :)

So see you when I see you. =)

rebuilding bridges... =)

2008-06-01T20:31:00.000-07:00

Last weekend, I realized that we are never really alone in this world. Isolation is a choice. I'm glad to know that despite my short disappearance from their lives, they are still there when I was already ready to rebuild the bridges that I burned.

Saturday night, after a very stressful shoot at MIMG and even more stressful emotional encounter, I hooked up with some Dark Angels (now called KAEODS) who have been trying to meet up with me only that I didn't have the time--or I just did not want to at that time. We went to C24 and they introduced to me a really cool drink that even after how many rounds I never felt tipsy nor drunk at all. Yummy. Its a secret concoction that the "KAEODS" cooked up. hmmm...

Timmy: Usahay ba kami ni Tricia, magtanga ra mi then kalit lang mi makaingon na, "Mingaw naman kong Ms. M oi."
Manna: Awww....kacute gud ana. :)
Timmy: So how's your "6months grace period?"
Manna: Over. Finally. But I'm dealing with another "6 months". But I'll be fine.
Timmy: Ofcourse you will be.

Reunited with my Misery (who is no longer miserable, thank God) =)
Others who are not on the picture (daghan...hehe): Maz, Janjan, Tricia, Dian, Pitoy, Pam, Deedai

Thanks for a fun night KAEODS. :)

Sunday night, my college barkada (4B's) texted me and asked to meet up because it was Maeh's and Kawewina's double birthday celebration. Now these two, I haven't seen in ages. But we were really tight during college. Super. Hehe. So we met up and talked nonstop. My head was still buzzing with their voices on the taxi ride home.

4b's: Hoy dude kibaw na imong apaps anah??
Manna: Haha...wala pa.
4b's: Nah patay jud ka!
Manna: Religious bitaw akong explanation ani. K rana. :)

It was nice seeing all of you guys again. :)

Bye maw...(1 down, 1 more to go--it just gets harder from here.)

2008-05-29T15:03:00.000-07:00

I just cut work yesterday. I could not bring myself to work. No. Not after we sent off Janjan (mawmaw) at the airport yesterday. Not after I hugged her to bits. Especially not after I opened her remembrance for me in the taxi and bursted out into sobs.

Two months ago, I thought that I would just have an ordinary summer. Meaning: the usual work and the one-time trip to the beach. But with some pleasant twist of fate, a long lost friend of mine arrived a day before my birthday and introduced me to a new friend later on. I call my long lost friend (YA)Wawah and my new friend (A)Mawmaw.

So the usual summer became an unusually great summer for me and it consisted of drinking almost every night (which explains my tardiness), watching movies, grilled hotdog and mallows night, other food trips, shopping, having a very long vacation on th beach, a 2-month long "sleepover", music tripping, internet surfing, bar hopping, "ungo" sessions, tattoo sessions, belly ring piercing and endless laughing and conversations about the 3 major L's in life: love, life and lust (hehe).

Everyday. It was always me with my Mawmaw and Wawah. Definitely no DULL moment with them. They were my ka-petes for the entire summer. My schedule revolved around them and I have no regrets because I could now say that I had a blast.

So why talk in past tense? That was the catch. From the very beginning, I knew that the end of summer would also signal the end of our hangouts. So we tried our best to fit in everything we wanted to do together in that span of time. And boy did we take it seriously! Mawmaw and I were already boarders at Wawah's place. Tita Christine has accepted that fact, I guess. That she would have to share her daughter with two other "almost-daughters" during her true daughter's short vacation here in Cebu. Hehe.

And yesterday--OH YESTERDAY...i hated yesterday. We knew yesterday would come. But we were so into deep in our "lingaw" that nothing prepared us for yesterday. Wawah and I were silent on our taxi ride going back. No one wanted to say anything. We tried to make it a feel-good day, went to the spa, ate scallops, drank tequila, watched dvds, but napiang na ang mga PETES. Its just not the same anymore.

Yesterday was DAY 1 of Manna's separation anxiety series. A few more days and its Wawah's time to go. Yesterday Wawah and I sent off Mawmaw. Next week--if i muster the strength, I'll also send her off. This time I would be alone. This time there will be no spa treatments or other feel-good stuff to do after.

And then I'm gonna go back to the life that I was used to. It's not a bad life, for sure. But its not gonna be the same as my 2-month long MIGHTY BONDing with my ka-petes.

A few hours from this moment, Mawmaw will be arriving in Dubai. When will I see her again? We still do not know. And Wawah? Next week will start another 9-month long absence as she tours the world again.

Thank you ka-petes for a very wonderful summer.

I will SURELY miss you.
so much.

Take care and come home to me soon, ok?

www.deviantart.comit's like that, and that's the way it is. sigh

2008-05-25T02:29:00.000-07:00

"But life just gets crazy, living life gets hard to do

And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew."

-Sunday Morning; Maroon 5

True, true.

MOST of the time, things don't go the way we want them to. Just like the line above, it is easy to think about just packing up your stuff and say "Alright, I'm done with life, can I go now?" But then again, it is NOT like that. It cannot be like that. Unless ofcourse you are suicidal--which at times I believe all of us has ever been. (The only reason why we are still alive now is because we realize that its not the way to go--so if one of YOU plan to do so--STOP RIGHT NOW. basaha sa ni.)

One thing I always say myself when I "think" that I am in very deep shtit is that "THIS TOO SHALL PASS." It is a very good advise I got from my friend Karen (I miss you dear) and at 22, meeehn I could really prove that its true.

I got my very first problem when I was in grade 6. I had a fight with my homeroom partner, Kaizan. We were very close friends and at the same time, partners at an activity that required carpentry skills--thus the need to be partnered with a guy. I thought I would never get to finish it without his help. But weeks after we became friends again.

First year HS, I had a very bad experience with "bullying". (I will not elaborate and I will not drop names.) I wanted to transfer to another school, but after one year, I overcame it, and I am the strong person that I am now.

Thesis during college was such a *****! I had partners but I did most of the work. Almost was not able to graduate on time. Took me 2 years and a 1 M gallons of blood, sweat and tears to finish it. But I did. Graduated on time too. :)

And ofcourse there are the occasional heavy heartbreaks. We all go though that, don't we? The nights you spend crying, the aching feeling in the heart every time you wake up. The agony-OH THE AGONY! I talked with a friend before and she said that a heartbreak was the hardest type of pain because you cannot just drink ponstan (or alaxan, perhaps? hehe) and expect the pain to be gone in hours. No. I have had my fair share but eventually...I just got over it. I did think that I never would, but I did. And I am pretty sure that a lot of you can also agree with me on that.

And then ofcourse I can state more of my "troubled" experiences but who would want to read more of that? Thing is, its true. It will all just pass. And eventually, whatever experience that was helps us become better persons--ofcourse if we channel the negative experiences into positive ones. It's just learning how to "carry" it, I guess.

I know, I know...kapoy gyud sha usahay. Its always one problem after another, but life is one whole learning experience. And I guess that is the fun in it. How will you be able to differentiate the feeling of happiness if you do not have the feeling of loneliness to compare it with, right?

You might be asking, why the hell do I sound like a self-help book right now? Let's just put it this way, I am also trying to tell myslef this: "Manna Sayon Alcaraz, you are a warrior, you have been through hell and back, you know you are strong--so come on! THIS TOO SHALL PASS."

nuff said.

so that's why its CLICHE.

2008-05-19T23:04:00.000-07:00

So, ok I had a bad day yesterday. I was pissed. What's a girl to do?

I'm not your typical cliche' girl who goes to the salon and shops when she's upset. No, I'm the type who'd normally go home, hide in my room and hibernate till the feeling goes away. Sometimes I'm the type who'd call up friends and invite them to drink--and I'd rant while THEY drink.

But yesterday, I felt like experiencing the cliche-ish lifestyle. So I went to X-salon and had my hair chopped. This is the shortest my hair has ever been in 3 years. Wanna see? Hehe...

Then I went to ayala and shopped. Ok so I didn't really shop SHOP...I just bought a dress. And a set of underwear. Hehe.

Then I ate go-go sandwich at KFC. Alone. :)

As if that wasn't cliche enough, I went to one of my best "girl friend's" place and had a Grey's Anatomy marathon. We even slept over there. Haha.

So here's a list of what a girl's got to do when she's pissed. Damn right i followed it religiously! :)

==salon== check
==shopping== check
==pig out== check
==dvd marathon with "girlfriends"== check
==slumber party== check

And my pissy feeling?

*POOF*

Gone, just like that.

Now I know why it's cliche.

It's cliche coz it works. :)

The INEVITABLE question...den den den den.

2008-05-18T22:40:00.000-07:00

I am trying my darndest best to tame this very angry lion inside my head but it just won't quit roaring demmit!

SHOULD I?

(Or should I quit the ASKING and actually start the DOING?)

Welcome to my life ladies and gentlemen.
Hope you're all having a grand time.

"We're fine people. We do fine. We live fine."

...

Yep.

Just another day in the life of MSA.

Can you believe I'm learning life lessons from a TV series?

2008-05-18T16:22:00.000-07:00

Many people told me that I should really start watching Grey's Anatomy. I was hooked on House before and they said GA was better. I didn't really get the chance but last night, we watched season 4 at a friend's house. Would you believe that the first few episodes really got me thinking. Here are some of the lines (or atleast versions of how I remember them) that got my mind running:

"Walking away makes you an honorable man when you realize that your'e no longer getting what you deserve." (or something like that)

"Its better to be alone and feel like a success than be in a relationship and feel like a failure."

"Change. We don't like it. We fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. It hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn't is lying, but here's the truth sometimes the more things change the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Sometimes change is everything."

"You don't destroy the people you love."

"The thing about addiction is, it never ends well. Because eventually, whatever it is that was getting us high, stops feeling good, and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you are there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes, letting it go hurts even worse." (this is my favorite)

"Things don't always go the way we want them to. But you just have to get over it. "

AND THEN, there's this scene:

Dr. Derek Shepherd: You know what I talked about with the other Grey? All the things this Grey won't let me say.
Dr. Meredith Grey: You can say anything to me.
Dr. Derek Shepherd: I want to marry you. I want to have kids with you. I want to build us a house. I want to settle down and grow old with you. I want to die when I'm 110 years old in your arms. I don't want 48 uninterrupted hours. I want a lifetime.
[Meredith takes a few steps back]
Dr. Derek Shepherd: . Do you see what happens? I say things like that and you fight the urge to run in the opposite direction. It's okay. I understand. I didn't, but now I do, I do. You're just getting started and I've been doing this for a long time. Deep down you're still an intern, and you're not ready.
Dr. Meredith Grey: I'm not ready right now, but things can stay the way they are and I'll get ready.
Dr. Derek Shepherd: Things can't stay the way they are. We can still meet in the elevator, the on call room. And maybe you'll get ready, and I'll wait. I'll wait until you're ready.
Dr. Meredith Grey: Okay then.
Dr. Derek Shepherd: Yeah, but what if, what if while I'm waiting I meet someone who is ready to give me what I want from you?
Dr. Meredith Grey: What if you do?
[the elevator opens in front of them and Derek steps in]
Dr. Derek Shepherd: I don't know.
[the doors close between them]

Ummm....I can't remember the rest but I'm pretty sure there's more.

eyeloviiit. :)

mikerly

2008-05-13T18:31:00.000-07:00

Another RAIN-inspired post :)

2008-05-13T14:45:00.000-07:00

Paint me with red

Let me see it

Sing me your song

Let me hear it

Embrace me with your passion

Let me feel it

Shower me with your tears

And let me dry it.

Bring me your sorrow

Let me soothe it

Extend me your hand

Let me hold it

Show me your wounds

Let me heal it

Give me your heart

And let me love it.

Forget yesterday

Let me erase it

Worry not for tomorrow,

Let me bless it

Offer me your present

Let me beautify it

Entrust to me your life

And let me shelter it.

Signed:

Your guardian angel...

A little drama won't hurt...

2008-05-12T16:16:00.000-07:00

WARNING: I used to be very dramatic in my posts before but I realized that it could get really cheesy and corny so i decided to make my blog fun and light. However, the weather today just made me feel really down, its depressing. So its up to you if you read this but really, major mush going at yah starting right now....

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puhtehk nakalimutan kong sasabihin ko! (naubos sa warning)

false alarm, i guess. hahaha.

And then there were three...

2008-05-11T19:35:00.000-07:00

Will it be a David vs. David showdown or will Syesha make it to the top 2?

IF YOU ASK ME, I'm all for a David vs. David showdown!

I am so excited for this week's American Idol. Last week's elimination did not come as a surprise for me. I knew Jason Castro sealed his fate in the competetion by choosing really lame songs to sing.

Syesha Mercado doesn't really stand out for me.

She sings well but she lacks some *ooompht*, she doesn't have the "X FACTOR" that is needed to be America's next Idol. Or I don't know, maybe its just me...But seriously, I really think that we're not gonna see her anymore next week.

I can't choose between the two Davids though. I do have dreams of making David Cook my husband *ahem*, but both Davids really got it--the talent, the personality, the right songs, the right praises from the right judge (read: Simon Cowell). Both of them have been giving strong performances lately.

Archuleta has been consistenty good--but Cook also has his surprising moments that are seriously unforgettable (The night he sang Billie Jean and Always be My Baby.)

Which David do you think will win?

I can't make up my mind!!!

And then there were three...

2008-05-11T19:34:00.000-07:00

mana oi.

2008-05-05T15:34:00.000-07:00

Mao ni ang giingon na SHORT LIVED.

d nko.
d nko.
d nko.
D NKO.

mommy...yayay. :,(

ingon tawko. kadakong HAHAY.

ATTN. ANGELS: our fellow angel is now a MOMMY! :)

2008-05-01T18:10:00.000-07:00

We all remember JM Rano right? Our ever fierce small but terrible defensive line? Well, she already gave birth to a healthy baby girl! Here's the details of our chat:

jan michel rano: hi
Manna Alcaraz: wooooow nnganak nka!!!
Manna Alcaraz: baby girl?
Manna Alcaraz: name?
jan michel rano: yeap
jan michel rano: jaimee aneeza michaela
Manna Alcaraz: send me a picture para i will blog about it
Manna Alcaraz: hoy ngano naa may michela? haha
Manna Alcaraz: iemail ang pictures-- manna_sa@yahoo.com
Manna Alcaraz: date of birth, weight, complete name etc
Manna Alcaraz: hehe
jan michel rano: http://www.flickr.com/photos/babyjam0416/
Manna Alcaraz: sige2
jan michel rano: april 16, 2008 @ 6:44pm
Manna Alcaraz: details
Manna Alcaraz: weeee
jan michel rano: 6.3lbs, ha dako kaayo, JAIMEE ANEEZA MICHAELA RANO.
Manna Alcaraz: ok2...sige sighe
jan michel rano: 2 days in labor, then induced sakit kaayo. hapit ko mo syaget og doc cs na lng ko
Manna Alcaraz: walay pic na apil ka?
jan michel rano: God is good normal delivery
jan michel rano: wala pa kay busy pako bantay ug bata
Manna Alcaraz: haha ok
Manna Alcaraz: i miss you jm
jan michel rano: sos mingaw na ko ninyo ms.m
jan michel rano: lalo na nabalitaan ko na 6-on-6 mo
jan michel rano: i miss dark angels. i miss football
jan michel rano: nwei i am bless with a little gurl
Manna Alcaraz: tinuod
Manna Alcaraz: asa gani ka karon?
jan michel rano: pretty baya sya hahaha
Manna Alcaraz: ofcourse
jan michel rano: dri amo south cotabato
Manna Alcaraz: waaaah
jan michel rano: naa video sa multiply nako
jan michel rano: blastie.multiply.com
Manna Alcaraz: sige j, tc jud... your blessed bitaw
Manna Alcaraz: i have to work sah ha but io really hope i see you soon
jan michel rano: unta maka balik ko dha kanang mag laag nya ta. hehehe
jan michel rano: cge work sa dha

This picture is the CUTEST! awww....jm i miss you dear. :,)

J, I know what you've been through. What matters now is you have a cute little angel with you now who will make everything you've been through really worth it. I miss you and you know that we your fellow angels will always be with you. Come here soon so we can all pamper your baby ASAP. *huuuugz*

i am seeing STARS

2008-04-27T20:03:00.000-07:00

When I saw Chris Brown and Jordin Sparks perform No Air in American Idol, I couldn’t help but notice Brown’s tattoo placed at his right neck. They were three small stars that I found really cute. I mean if a tough guy could pull off a tattoo that would have been ideally a design that a grade 3 student would prefer, then maybe I could pull it off too.

Right. Hmmm.

I really got intrigued by his tat so I research it on the net only to find out that there was also a trail of stars in his back.

Hmmm I don’t think this looks beautiful. Murag tagiptip. Haha.

Apparently, he and Rhianna have the same tat also.

Kuyaw. In-ani jud diay ning gugma sah.

While searching for other star tattoos (I just got effin addicted to STARS after I saw Chris’ tat), guess who dropped by the office…….

Ronnie Macapagal of the famous Ronnie’s Tattoo Studio. (Did you know that Ronnie does NOT have a single tattoo on his body?)

He’s gonna have an ad at RCTV soon and he said that he’d be willing to give me a free tat. I showed him these designs and asked if it would be feasible for my skin color. (Will just be a smaller version that I want placed at my back)

He said he could just adjust the colors to blue, yellow and stuff to match my skin color…Whatever. I trust Ronnie. Hehe.

Question now is: HOW SURE AM I?

I have the design.

I have the artist. (Who’s willing to give it for free…)

I have the desire.

But I don’t have the will JUST yet.

To get one or not to get one?

(Actually I originally wanted to have a cross at my back. Nasuya rajud kong Chris Brown. Haha)

PEDERASYON

2008-04-27T18:09:00.000-07:00

Kada naay mangutana nako kung unsa na petsa sa maong adlaw ug pangutana, usa rajud akong ikatubag.

"Ayaw nalang ko pangutan-a kay kinse ug traynta rajud akong timan-an na adlaw!"

Baynti otso pa intawn karon. Layu-a pa sa traynta oi. (bisag duha ra ka adlaw ang diperensya, ug usa nalang gyud kagatos imong kwarta, paeht geng, layo pajud nang duha ka adlaw na pag-antos!)

In-ani gyud ning maapil ka sa PEDERASYON SA MGA TINGBITAY UG HAPIT NANG SWELDO. Ug pangutan-on ko ninyo asa molupad akong kwarta? Ay naaaa... ayaw nalang. Lami kay magtaxi sa buntag kay kapoy huwat ug jeep labi nag puno tanan ang manglabay. Sitenta pud ang kaltas. Haha.

Kibaw ko wa gyud mo'y sympatiya nako tungod pud ana. Gashare ra gani ko. Hehe.

Apil pud mo ana na pederasyon? Dali kay maglapok ta. ;)

(Gimingaw nako nilang Jose, Vicente ug Josefa. Kaila ka ana nila?) :((

MY 100TH BLOG ENTRY!!! (imagine that)

2008-04-22T20:30:00.000-07:00

WARNING: This is a bit long, don't worry I will compensate with pictures. Hehe. I don't expect you to read all of it, but if you do, then thank you.

Ever since I was a kid, my daddy would always buy me big notebooks for me to write stuff on. I couldn't count how many they were anymore but I knew I had sooo many of it. He always told me that I'd be a writer someday and that I would write a book. By age 12 I asked him to give me a typewriter for my birthday because I would start working on my first "book". Well he didn't give me one so I handwrote it on one of my journals and that was the first and last book I ever wrote in my entire life. hahaha. (I got tired writing it by hand. haha) Good thing we have blogs now.

I never really considered myself as a good writer. As a matter of fact, as I looked back on my previous entries, I saw many grammatical errors and lousy compositions. But then again, I don't write to impress. I write to express. I love writing. I love sharing my thoughts on a lot of things. Now that technology has evolved and blogs have been created, I found an avenue for me to put my thougts into "cyber paper" without the hassle of having to write them down by hand. I enjoy blogging. Its a great stress reliever. And at the same time, I enjoy reading other people's blogs because I get to learn a lot of things.

I had so many blogs already, friendster, blogspot, yahoo 360 and finally multiply. So far my multiply blog has been the most active one and the one that I loved the most because here, there really is interaction.

My multiply blog has really witnessed the best and the worst in my life for more than a year. One stranger even PM'ed me when he read my entry entitled Teach me how to be strong (click on it to read if you want.) Apparently he was concerned and gave me advise. Hehe.

This blog has really saved my life. There was a time when I was too transparent. I just let out a lot of negative energy thourgh my blog. But then I realized that blogging about nice stuff makes me feel better than blogging about really serious emo type of entries. Although sometimes, usahay, minsan, I allow myself to be a drama queen in cyber space. hehe.

Now that I'm composing my 100th entry, I would just like to thank the people who (unkowingly) pushed me and inspired me to write. I know I am NOT a celebrity blogger but just give me this moment please. Hehe.

To Cecile Van Straten of the famous www.chuvaness.com -- your blog is really funny and light and sometimes I copy how you blog. So chica Cecile Zamora! :)

To my friends who always read my blog every single time, thank you for wasting a few minutes of your time with me everyday. Hehe. I wouldn't mind if no one read my blogs, but knowing that someone reads them inspires me a lot.

To those who constantly comment, THANK YOU very much. Your comments really brighten my day and I love interacting because it means that somehow, you could relate to what I posted. Everytime I see the "1 reply to your post" alert, I always get excited. Hehe

To the people whom I love, loved, starting to love (ok, don't make an issue about this, I can love as many people as I want and that includes family and friends) and to everyone who has made an impact on my life so much so that I was able to mention your name on my blog, THANK YOU. Without you and the experiences that you shared with me, my life wouldn't have been this "orchestratedly chaotic".

I know my blog is not that great compared to other blogs. But I guess what's great about me is that I write from my heart. I write from my soul. I write to please myself and not to please others. I know I write about basically anything that comes to my mind, and sometimes some of them are pretty useless, but you see that's because I don't really think about the readers when I post them.

I know there is nothing extraorinary with my writing. I can't come up with really great lines or metaphors. I'm no poet. I'm no Jessica Zafra. I'm no freakin' Jose Rizal. But I'm just someone who enjoys the deed.

This is already my 100th entry. There surely will be more to come.

If you survived to read up to the very end of this long entry, thank YOU. That means a lot to me. Please comment so I can thank you. Haha. (Pardon the drama, I just really appreciate those who take time to read my entries.)

While David Cook was singing Mariah's Always be my Baby...

2008-04-21T18:21:00.000-07:00

...I was having goosebumps all over my arms and I just couldn't believe he pulled it off. I was screaming "OMG!!! OMG!!!" (seriously) over and over again. It was really a number 1 fan moment for me. It was the best performance of the night! It was crazy but it was great. I loved the violin touch when he started singing the chorus, I loved his facial expression while singing it...I loved the lights! I loved everything!

Randy Jackson gave it a standing ovation and Simon Cowell said that he liked it very much because it was original and he was not afraid to take risks which is what being an artist is all about. Paula--well, she likes everyone so her comments don't really matter anymore. Haha.

David was soooo cute. After hearing the compliments from the judges, he was really in tears. I love him. He's my ONLY bet now for American Idol.

*Sorry if this post got kinda delayed--was "busy" cleaning last week. Haha. Muhirit pajud.

The End! (now, how to maintain…tsktsk_)

2008-04-20T15:50:00.000-07:00

I think I heard the angels as they sang their choral Alleluia and the saints as they applauded when I finally threw out the last garbage bag outside my room. Would you believe I threw out 5 garbage bags of unnecessary clutter and trash from my room?!

To tell you honestly I never thought I would finish it because I got sidetracked from my goal last weekend (I went to the Tostado Festival in Santander ). But last night when I arrived, I was motivated to just go on and do it so I would finally look forward to going home to a room that I am positively sure is inhabited by a human being and not by some wild animal.

It was really really stressful but it was all worth it. I finished cleaning by 2:30AM. Whew. But dayem it felt good. This is really a big achievement for me. Hahaha.

Anyway just let the pictures speak for itself. :,) (CLICK TO ENLARGE, IF YOU MAY. HAHA)

BEFORE

AFTER

BEFORE

AFTER

BEFORE

AFTER

BEFORE

AFTER

My room never looked this good in the last FIVE years. Hahaha. I'm so proud.

Show me your room and I'll tell you who you are...Right.

2008-04-17T14:27:00.000-07:00

My room pretty much sums up my life. I admitted a million times on my blog that I have the messiest jungle of a room in the entire universe. You can just imagine my life then. Haha. Anyway, last night I finally decided to clean up my act—and my room. Maaaaan was it tough. I’m not even done yet. I have just cleared and mopped the floor. Haven’t waxed it yet. I can only clean in the evening and I don’t want to sleep with the “maka bai nko high” smell of floor wax.

My room is seriously fcuked up. It took me almost 3 hours to clear the floor, sweep it and mop it twice but it still looked like this. (Floor ray limpyo, and this is just DAY 1 of the Manna-finally-decides-to-clean-her-room series.)

DID YOU SEE MY ELECTRIC FAN???

So anyway, I am NOT proud of my room. That's why I decided to clean it up. I haven't been doing anything about it for almost one year. For almost one year I was in and out of my room. I was in and out of my life. But now, I decided to straighten things up, get rid of the clutter and allow myself to have some serious literal breathing space. That's why I'm cleaning. That's why I took those pictures. So that I will be reminded of what I have done to myself.

I'm so excited for the next post because finally, I will be able to show you how my room will be after I clean all the mess. I have my fingers crossed because to tell you honestly, I do not know how long its gonna take me to finish cleaning it.

Tonight is floorwax time. Tomorrow, I will start organizing the room and on Sunday, I will buy me some nice scented candles. I can't hardly wait. And yes, there will be pictures. Definitely. :)

My Cheap Thrills

2008-04-16T14:12:00.000-07:00

Pamabaway tag kalipay?
Here are some shallow things that can make me happy in just a snap of a finger. Haha.

1. Dunkin Donuts Butternut Flavor (Php10 per pc.) - ask my officemates, it can lift my mood in an instant. Diba Grace?
2. Listening to a favorite song over and over again until I get sick of it.
3. Riding a motorcycle in the evening, joyrides...long drives, the like.
4. Comments on my blog! (hehe)
5. The feeling of being "good"..haha diba teh? (well in my case its really just a cheap thrill because I don't need to drink a lot to be "good"..tipid ko na drinker. hehe)

6. Videoke! (Php5 per song) - my all time favorite songs to sing are Stay by Lisa Loeb, Torn by Natalie Imbruglia and Bring me to Life by Evanescence. (shagit2)
7. The one that costs Php2 per piece...haha. hmmmm....
8. Good conversation and good company.
9. Playing and winning solitaire in my pc. hahaha (old school!!!)
10. Getting complimented for something I knew I worked hard for.

Well, these are just some of my cheap thrills. I know theres more but as of now, these are the only things I can remember. haha.

How about you? What are your cheap thrills?

short term vs. long term

2008-04-14T14:20:00.000-07:00

Its funny how people always think about just the NOW. Not that the "yesterday" matters anymore but there's always the "tomorrow" to consider. I'm guilty of that. I've been guilty on making decisions based on short term happiness. Based on what can satisfy and please me now. I always tell myself that i'll just have to worry about tomorrow--well, tomorrow!

More often than not, something goes wrong but I've dealt with it. Still dealing with some of it, but so far no major harm done.

BUT right now, I'm kinda scared because I am acting on a certain decision that I know for sure will just give me momentary happiness, and will cause me extreme sadness later on. I don't want to let the moment pass, because it has already passed my way twice. I ignored it the first time and regretted it. Now that I've been given a second chance, I should learn to seize it right, live my life, take the risk and whatever other bullshitty advice we hear.

If you want me to talk about the moment, the right now...well it has been super great. Nothing compares to the excitement and thrill that I get out of the experience that I am in right now. I am enjoying the feeling because i have FORGOTTEN how it is to feel like this after almost 1 year of being in the "Dark Ages." I know I should be more cautious. But the RIGHT NOW is just so great.

So the question now is, should I live for the moment and worry about tomorrow later on? Or should I just be the cautious person that I ideally should be given the situation I am in right now?

BTW, no, I'm not on drugs. Hehe :p

Mental block and more...

2008-04-08T14:50:00.000-07:00

I've been trying to come up with a new storyboard for Mactan Isaland Memorial Garden (yes, imagine that) since yesterday and my mind just cannot--CANNOT produce ideas right now. I guess its because I gave my all when I made one for Angelicum Garden of Angels--which is MIMG's number one competition. Arghh.

My mind is just so dry right now. Its so hard making a storyboard for a TVC for a memorial garden. You have to be creative but at the same time you have to make sure that you are selling the product. HEEEEEEEEELP.

If you have great ideas on how to sell a glorified cementery please let me know. Please please please...Help me. Today is my deadline but if I don't come up with anything then I'd just have to negotiate to extend my deadline.

On top of that, bitay na kaayo ko geng. Dugaya sad sa kinse oi!

my version of a happy birthday ;)

2008-04-03T14:51:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, God told me that I had a lot of good friends.

To tell you honestly, I wasn't planning anything for my birthday. I knew it was coming but I did not make plans. Why?

a.) no money
b.) didn't know who to celebrate it with--daghan bya kog friends...haha
c.) i had to work anyways

But it started on the eve of my birthday--I spent it with my Nomad's friends. Didn't spend a cent. Hehe. Didn't drink a drop either. I couldn't drink "dennis trillo" with iced tea anyways without dying afterwards. hehehe. Many friends started texting and calling me already. That really made me feel good. It's nice to be remembered. :)

On the morn of my birthday, I woke up at 7:30 AM--just in time so I wouldn't be late for work. But since I didn't plan anything for my day, I thought about giving myself a treat by going back to sleep. I woke up at 10AM and ate breakfast at Nomad's. By 11AM i went home and took a bath because I had to report to work in the afternoon. Just when I was wrapped in my towel and putting deo on (hehe), someone knocked on my door. (weird, nobody did that) I was told that someone was waiting downstairs. Surprise, surprise. :)

When I got down, someone left me a package. Wow my very first birthday present! (apparently the last for the day...hehe) It was wrapped in gold paper. I knew it was from the guys at Nomad's so I rushed there and thanked them and went home again to open my present. I loved it! They gave me a set of plain white tees. Awwwww.... (Plain white tees are their "thing" so now I'm like officially part of their gang). I wore it to work. :)

Let's skip the afternoon part because it was all pure work and someone even sent me a hate mail--haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Woohooo!

I then had dinner with my friend who just came back from a cruise. (Teh I really did miss you so much!) She has been gone for 9 months and arrived the day before my birthday. Goody! We ate at Mooon Cafe (got lost, as usual--really bad with remembering directions), and talked the whoooole time. Afterwards we decided to get a drink at Alejandro's (and got lost again). We ordered wengweng (that's our thing). Two pitchers, just the two of us, mano y mano. (hehe) Now wengweng has 7 spirits in it and I AM NOT MUCH of a drinker. Seriously. Just 3 glasses of beer makes me fall asleep. But we finished the two mini pitchers because it tasted so damn good. I wanted more but my head was throbbing and I was all red already. But it did feel goooood. haha. HUBOG DOH!

Manna: Teh, did I already tell you that I'm so happy that you got home in time for my birthday?
Kim: Yes teh, for the nth time already. (hahaha)

Went home, dropped by Nomad's but couldn't really function anymore so I went to my room and slept. Woke up at 1:30AM feeling reaaally thirsty AND hungry so I went to Nomad's again and we all ate at a 24-hour tapsilogan. Whew! Went home and slept again.

That about wraps up my birthday. I am overwhelmed by the influx of greetings, calls, messages by friends that I haven't seen in such a long time and etc. To tell you the truth, yesterday was the first time I did not plan anything for my birthday but I thought it was one of the best birthdays I've ever had!

One thing I realized, lingaw diay nang di ka mamangka kay makakita jud ka kung kinsa ang mga taw na mu go out of their way just to make you feel that you're remembered on your birthday. Yahoo!

Poll time!!!

2008-03-31T19:24:00.000-07:00

I like my new layout now just because of the tricycle in the banner. :) But I think its too dark. Hmmm... What do you think? Help me decide by answering my poll. :)

After 5 long years...

2008-03-30T05:07:00.000-07:00

Now I know why I've always thought that in Cebu, Ramos would always be my comfort zone. I have been living in Ramos for the past 6 years of my stay here in Cebu and despite the fact that I currently work in Banilad, I still opted to stay in Ramos. Many of my friends have been cajoling me to transfer to other places, to leave my dorm (which has a 10PM curfew on weekdays) and such but despite the fact that I also did want to do so, I couldn't bring myself to just do so!

It all started when I decided to drastically change my lifestyle. I had to lie low on a lot of things that I was used to doing. Going out with friends, watching flagfootball...etc. I had to do it because I was going through something and I just wanted to become a better and stronger person. I was already bracing for the consequences. I thought that maybe my friends would think that I abandoned them. I thought that maybe they would not understand. I thought that separating myself from the lifestyle that I was used to living would make me a lonelier, more introvert person. I tell you, I was scared to get away from what I was used too. But I had to. (Why? Long story.)

So here I was, hanging out at my place, watching TV, expecting to be a boring person for the time being. Then I decided to eat at Nomad's Garage. It's this newly opened eating place located very near my dorm. It used to be a garage--thus the name. Now this place was owned by a couple of the guys from Ramos. I've been living in this area for 5 years and their faces were already very familiar to me. I did not know them by name though because they seemed to be a very exclusive group of tambays. With that in mind, I was pleasantly surprised when they invited me over to chill and hang out with them. Now instead of sulking in my room, I was like, "What the heck."

A couple of hangouts, mite bites, bottles of coke and a towel as trophy later, here I was, fanning the barbeque grill, serving rice, giving change and just simply having the time of my life at Nomad's garage. I am honestly overwhelmed by the fact that the people I am hanging out and having a blast with right now are the people that I just used to see everyday.

God is really good. Just when I thought that undergoing a separation from the lifestyle that I was used to would be a very challenging task for me, He comes up with a brilliant idea of sending me new friends who did give me a 360 degree turn on life experiences.

Now about my other group of friends, I am thankful that we are still good. They understand. And thank you guys for understanding. I really do appreciate it.

As for my plans of leaving Ramos? Well, that feels like a gazillion years ago. :)

"make a style on any occasion that elegant look you want..." (go figure)

2008-03-27T19:48:00.000-07:00

After a day of rest, I'm back to work again. I'm having a really bad case of last song syndrome. Was making a story board for a 30-second TVC of Chester Enterprises. To get inspiration, I listened to their jingle for like 1 million times. I transcibed it also to get the lyrics. I have had enough of their cheery "You got the style, we got the textile!"

So now, I'm listening to my mp3 player to erase the memory of that jingle. Hay.

I'm so loving Leona Lewis' song entitled Bleeding.

"You cut me open and I keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding, love"--this, I don't mind having a last song sydrome.

Lalalalala...later.

i hate...

2008-03-26T20:46:00.000-07:00

MITES!!!

I have a seriously bad case of mite bites. argh. :( I had to skip work coz of it. I couldn't function normally coz they friggin' itch! dayymiit!

Tabang Lord.

An Easter post (and more)

2008-03-22T15:23:00.000-07:00

So first of all, happy easter to everyone. We just finished a 4-hour mass starting at 3AM. If you're wondering if that is possible--well that is even a longer story. Dint get much sleep. Funny how sleep evades you when you desperately need it and how it haunts you when you need to stay awake. (So much like how I felt while listening to the 10 epistle readings... hmmm) But its all good. When it all boils down to knowing what our savior suffered on the cross just to save us all, a 4-hour mass every easter sunday is really not as bad as it sounds.

So now I'm spending my last moments in Kalibo in our ever tusted hang-out place which we call "The Planet." Its actually an internet cafe where we can all hang out and chill. My boys (hehe) are all busy playing DOTA. I wonder whats in that game for them to be really addicted to it. One time I tried playing O2 jam for the heck of it. But I sucked at it. Hell, I suck at online games in general. So I'd rather surf the net. For 10 bucks an hour, not bad at all.

I've been going here since I arrived. Will really miss the guys. Will miss "the planet". Will miss the motorcycle rides. Life here is sooo simple. Everyone leaves so close to everyone. When you wanna meet up, I just go directly to The Planet and sure enough everyone will be arriving without me even telling them that I'm here. My boys are very predictable like that.

Actually its funny coz they're all batchmates of my brother, 2 years younger than me. But since my brother has a girlfriend already, I was the one who started hanging out with them. They just love the simple pleasures that life gives them, so its a breath of fresh air compared to the grueling stress I have to deal with in the city. I've known this guys since we were kids because we go to the same church--yeah where we have 4-hour masses.

It has been really fun. But just a few hours from now, I will be leaving them again. I hope to see them again this May 1 so we could seriously pursue our plan to go to Boracay on motorcycle--just for the experience.

Tomorrow, I will be back to Cebu--a city which I have also learned to love. But deep down I know that whatever happens to me, I will always always go back to Kalibo. I will always go back to my boys. Haha.

(They don't even know that I keep blogging about them. Too busy with DOTA)

Btw, did I really say that this was an Easter post? Haha.

Happy Easter again everyone.

Enjoying Kalibo the OLD SCHOOL way

2008-03-21T15:21:00.000-07:00

So last night was Good Friday that's we didn't go out and party. I hanged out at a friend's house and watched the yearly procession of chariots in the town proper. I'm not really a Roman Catholic, and besides we already came from a 7 last words mass so I did not really have to join the procession. I as telling my kababata that they shouldn't drink coz it as good friday. So I treated them to a 1.5L coke and chips. When they finished it, they were like:

Nikko: Hay paano, ubos eon ro Coke. (What now, there's no more coke?)

Manna: Chika kita ron. (Let's just talk)

Apol: Ok boss!

***silence. stare at each other. really long akward silence.***

Manna: Fine! Do what you hafta do!

Nikko: Ok! Amot2 kita para sa generoso ag iced tea! (Alright you guys, contribute cash for Generoso and iced tea)

So much for the Good Friday abstinence. This guys couldn't function well in a hang-out without alcoohol. Haha. But I love these guys. We've been friends since the time we couldn't even wipe away the snots from our faces. I didn't drink though. I'm a good christian. (hahaha)

At around 7pm, we decided to go home. And then, the motorcycle freak that I was, I asked Paul to drive around for a while. I'm crazy about motorcycles. I can't drive but I love riding them. So we drove off, under the big full moon. Nothing beats the feeling of wind gushing through your face. There were three of us who were on motorcycles and we felt like just driving off. We then went to the nearest beach seawall (which was just like a 15-minute drive) and just sat there and looked at the glistening sea. Now this seawall has been there for AGES. But after 21 (almost 22) years of being an aklanon, that was the first time that I was there. I wasn't allowed when I as a kid coz it as "dangerous". We even saw an empty condom wrapper there. Eeeew.

Anyway, we plan to go to Boracay on motorcycle this coming May 1. Weeeee. I'm already excited. Caticlan is just like an hour ride from Kalibo. We plan to leave before sunrise and go back home before sunset. Can't wait!!!

I'm gonna miss these guys when I go back to Cebu. :(

From Kalibo, with LAB!

2008-03-19T15:10:00.000-07:00

Finally, a much awaited vacation for me! weeee.

Thing is, I wake up earlier here because we should eat breakfast together. Alcaraz tradition. But you know, its ok waking up early with no pressure of going to work. Atleast, I won't have a hard time adjusting when I go back.

Anyway, I was sooo amused because this morning, I went to town to have my sandals fixed. Guess how much I was charged???

P5!!! For shoe repair! I felt ridiculous giving him only P5 so I gave him P10 instead. So cheap huh? If I were in Cebu I would have paid P50-P100 for it. Amazing. :)

That's life in Kalibo for you!

Anyway, have a blessed holy week y'all!

From Kalibo, with LAB!

2008-03-19T15:05:00.000-07:00

The Photophobe

2008-03-14T01:27:00.000-07:00

Its about time I changed my avatar. :) Hi y'all!

I don't know if you've noticed but I'm not much of a fanatic of taking self portraits. Check my albums and you'll find it rare to see decent solo pictures of myself. When I'm in a picture, it is usually with a group. I have two cameraphones (one of which is kinda obsolete). If you check the albums in my phone, you will notice that it mostly contains pictures of my friends, officemates and such. You will rarely see solo pictures of me in my phone. I'm just not the type who you will see in the corner smiling and taking a picture of herself with the camera phone. When there's a group picture taking and everybody is running towards each other and stepping on each other's toes just to be included in the photo, you will normally see me just sitting in one corner and laughing. But don't get me wrong, I don't hate pictures. I love them. I love TAKING them. I also like being part of them but I would NOT die if I don't become part of a picture.

There are those very rare moments when I feel like being a poser and I indulge in a little vanity. But that's just it. I guess I'm also very picky with my solo pictures. If I don't like what I see, it is automatically deleted. (sus magpataas taas pajud ug explain oi, kung muangkon nalang diay kog di ko photogenic! hahaha)

Anyway, here are a few of my fave solo pictures--mostly taken when I was not looking. :)

This one was taken by Rose. I only found out about this picture when I saw it in her multiply account. Thanks Rose.

I was sleeping when belle took this. (wasn't acting! swear!)

On this picture, I asked my friend to take a photo of my ambigram henna tat which I love. :)

And the point of this whole entry? Well, I've been wanting to change my avatar for a long time but haven't found a solo pic of myself which I really liked. So I checked my pics to see which one would be my most recent solo picture and I was surprised to see that there wasn't much to choose from. That's when I realized that I was a little photophobic. That's when all those picture-taking moments flashed back to my memory.

Bati baya kay gamay ra ayo kog pictures na mapilian. Maybe next time I'll try sitting in one corner and take pictures of myself too. Magpractice nya ko. Haha

blogger's block :(

2008-03-12T00:36:00.000-07:00

OK. I am becoming a very boring blogger. Sorry about that. Well anyway, while I'm typing this, I am also watching American Idol. I fear for Ramiel Malubay. Her performances are getting weaker and weaker every week. :( David Cook on the other hand really really rocked the stage (with all the lights--gaaahhhd, can i faint right now?)

ANYWAY. So I have a lot of things that I would like to blog about already. They are:

1. Martian Child (the movie)
2. My new found "ramos tambay" friends and their surprisingly intellectual conversations. (Did you know that taking a crap--yeah doing number 2, was considered as a social gathering during the Roman Empire? Weird huh.)
3. This book I'm reading. (well, ok I'm reading three books simultaneously--but) Its entitled 7 liveliest sins. Really really cool insights. Hmmm....

So like I said, I don't have much time to blog about all that. But when I get the time, I've already lost the inspiration. Sad.

BTW, my boss surprisingly reads my blogs. Hi sir. :) He thinks that blogging should be called "blabbing" coz well, that's all majority of us really do. But well, blogging is fun. And I suppose blogging was invented to promote free speech. So there.

Don't worry sir, I'll try to blog more "important" stuff in the future. But until I get my own PC in the office (*wink*wink*), well you guys just have to wait. Haha.

been "busy"

2008-03-11T22:20:00.000-07:00

...snooping on this aussie guy's blog. sir chad and i (and even alexis, our vj) are hooked! haha

it's a scandal bursting in the blogger world. if you know what i mean, then i'm pretty sure you understand. hehe. if you don't, well have a peaceful life. :)

American Idol FEVER

2008-03-06T22:07:00.000-08:00

At this very moment, they have just eliminated Asia'h Epperson.
I hope Danny Noriega will be saved. :(

I'm still waiting.

...
...
...

OH MY GOOOOD!!!!!

:,(

Danny just got voted off.

And Ramiele Malubay cried. (Danny wore her glasses on the night she performed.) But atleast she's in.

Waaaahhhhh I love Danny. I loved his gayness. This is TMTH!!!! (Danny speak for "too much to handle")

Bye Danny. :,(

Atleast Ramiele Malubay, David Cook and David Archuleta is still at the final 12. I cannot choose who I love the most among the three.

How about you? Who's your bet?

Rainy Friday Morning

2008-03-06T12:15:00.000-08:00

And I thought it was already summer. Darn.

"At ang aking pagkakasabik sayo ay mahahalintulad sa pagkakasabik ng lupang nakaranas nag tagtuyo sa ulan."

In english.

"I miss you like dry earth misses the rain."

Haha. Paken rain makes me want to be makata. Grrr.

hala sige let's post this!

2008-03-05T12:07:00.000-08:00

Don't worry i'm not posting the entire song. Nalingaw lang ko ani na part sa song ni Neyo. I sooo missed his concert. Sayang he always had a soundtrack for my life. bwahahaha...

I can't get it back,
But I don't want it back,
I realize that,
She don't know how to act,
Never been a dumb dude no I'm not dense,
I just had a slight lack of common sense,
I was the good guy, she was the bad girl,
I'm thinkin one girl, she's thinkin me earl, james, and jimmy
Yea she had plenty,
But love for me she didn't have any,

[Pre-Chorus]
I was inviting her into my heart,
She was out riding in some other man's car, (nyahaha)
She was my nighttime, thought I was her star,
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong,
Won't take long for me to move on,

[Chorus]
Please don't worry bout me I'm fine,
(please don't worry bout me I'm fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time,
(only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say,
That I'll be okay,
Go on girl (go on girl)
Go on girl (go on girl)
Go on girl

AMEN. :)

MAYPRIL

2008-03-03T12:52:00.000-08:00

You know how nursing students always wear nametags? Well, as usual I was riding a 13C jeepney going to the office and one of the passengers was a nursing student. I knew that this wasn't the first time that we rode the same jeepney because of her name. The first time I saw her wearing that nametag, I immediately couldn't help but stare. It said: "Maypril".

This morning was probably the 3rd ot 4th time that we rode together in the same jeepney. Her name kinda struck me as odd, if not unique. Usually, people named April or May or Jan are people born on that very month that they were named after. But Maypril? Please enlighten me.

Was she born in the middle of those months (duh)? Or maybe its a combination of her father's and mother's names (Mayora & Prilsitio???--I don't think so). Or its the combination of the months of her parents' birthdays.

Then again, it shouldn't be my problem, right? Haha.

Sorry Maypril. See you around I guess. Maybe next time na magkasakay ta, I would have the guts to ask. :)

Forced inspiration..hehe

2008-02-29T12:32:00.000-08:00

Nalingaw ko dah. My officemate turned my poem in the previous post into a song. Then my other officemate was challenged so he asked me to write one more piece so that he too, could turn it into a song. Here's what I came up with in three minutes. I don't know if this is decent enough. haha...

There are paintings on the wall

There are echoes in the hall

My vulnerability emerges

I'm naked

I'm sacred

I'm rising from the dead

There are puddles on the pathway

As I licked the rain away

I flicked thoughts of you into the can

I'm naked

I'm sacred

I'm rising from the dead

I hid myself in the trunk of my car

I urged my mind to go very far

Bright light engulf me with your warmth

I'm naked

I'm sacred

I'm rising from the dead

Tonight I shall breathe again.

My "idea" of a poem

2008-02-27T00:58:00.000-08:00

I haven't written a poem in a long time already and I no longer know the rules. But I felt like making one, and this is what I came up with.

I don't understand their smiles

Their happiness cast no spell...

Where is the melody in the songs that I hear?

All beauty is lost, there is so much to fear

The curtains have closed

All the lights have been turned out

I only have my shadow,

I only have my doubts.

I don't see no color red

Just grays, just blacks, just whites

I've got a broken timepiece

I'm bracing for the heights

The movies don't bring comfort

The drugs don't seem to work

My blood is very cold now

I'm a vampire on a lurk

Tomorrow will be the same

And I will forever be changed.

Ang iba't ibang mga "MINSAN" ng buhay

2008-02-21T20:22:00.000-08:00

"Paunang Salita"

Karamihan sa blog entries ko ay nakatala sa English, minsan nakakapag Cebuano ako, pero minsan naman nagtatagalog din. Masyado na akong matagal na hindi nakakapag sulat sa wikang Filipino kaya ngayon ay muli kong tatahakin ang pagsusulat sa kolokyal na tagalog. Kaya heto na.

(Unang talata pa lang nahirapan na ako! whew!)

"Katawan"

Ako na siguro yung taong pinaka "inconsistent." Kasi ang dami kong "lagi pero minsan..."

Halimbawa, lagi akong nakikinig ng music bago matulog. Pero minsan, naiirita ako kaya pinapatay ko yung player.

Lagi akong nagtyatyaga na maging maaga sa opisina pero minsan talagang nala-late ako.

Lagi akong nagdadasal pero minsan di ko nagagawa dahil nakakalimutan ko, o wala akong masabi, o talagang wala lang.

Meron din akong mga "ayoko talaga pero minsan..."

Ayoko ng chocolate flavored icecream, pero minsan kinakain ko naman.

Ayoko makipagkaibigan ni *toot* pero minsan masaya naman pala siyang kasama.

Ayoko ng havaianas pero minsan naiiisipan kong bumili.

Meron din akong mga seryosong MINSAN. Yung tipong alam mo kung ano yung tamang gawin pero minsan ay talagang mas pinipili nating magpakatanga. Lagi mong pinipilit na maging masaya pero minsan di mo lang talaga kaya magpaka artista.

May mga tama rin na minsan ay nagiging mali. Tamang magmahal pero mali ka kung maling tao rin ang pagbubuhusan mo. Tamang magsalita palagi ng totoo, pero minsan di talaga maiiwasan na meron kang masaktan.

At may mali rin na minsan ay nagiging tama. Mali ang manakit ng tao pero minsan yun lang talaga ang tanging paraan. Mali ang takbuhan ang isang problema, pero minsan mas nakakabuti rin.

"Pangwakas"

Naisipan kong sabihin to dahil may mga "lagi" sa buhay ko ngayon na aking pinapalitan ng "minsan." Kailangan ko munang iwanan ang aking mga nakasanayan upang makapagpatuloy sa aking buhay at mahilom na ang mga sugat na sa pagka ngayon ay akin pang inaaruga.

Biglang naging sobrang seryoso noh? Pagpasensyahan nyo na at minsan, ganito lang talaga ako. :)

Orchestrated chaos?

2008-02-16T06:37:00.000-08:00

When I thought of a title for my site, I wanted it to be something that would speak a lot about me. I had many choices and as a matter of fact, have used them before I came to my final one.

My choices were: "Boulevard of broken dreams" (kinda not original); "Down Manna Avenue" (kinda corny); "Kinsa si Manna" (ok, but i wanted it to be in english so everyone could understand.

Then I came up with "Orchestrated Chaos". It had a nice ring to it and I actually liked that it was an oxymoron. How can "orchestrated" and "chaos" be put together in one title when both words contradicted each other. But then again, it was really perfect for me.

Let's start with the "chaos" part of me. Ever since, chaos has been a constant part of my life. Literally and emotionally. I am not a very organized person. Try visiting my room and you will know what I mean. Everything is just strewn all over the place and there's almost no room for me to move around because of so much stuff lying around. Check my cabinet. Check my desk at the office. Check my notes. Check my organizer! Geez I don't even follow the dates in my organizer. I just write stuff wherever I open it. I don't have a system when I work. I just depend on my brain and memory when I work. I don't do the listing stuff, or the sitting down and meditating before I do my work. It just doesn't work for me that way. And that's just the shallow part of it.

If you are my friend, you will also know that my life is far from peaceful. There's always something going on. I have so many issues and I have a lot of baggages. I've been independent since I was 12, and though my parents always tried to guide me all the time, when you're away from them, you just don't follow where your guided too. And maybe that is why I'm never far away from something phenomenal happening in my life all the time. May it be a good thing or a bad thing, chaos is always present in my life.

Now let me talk about the "orchestrated" part. When you check my room, yes it is unruly and disorderly. But you will see that all the bags are stacked in this area, my accessories in this area, my shoes in this area...etc. Its chaotic but at the same time orchestrated. My desk at the office is sooo messed up but I know where to find my stuff when I need to find my stuff. My working method is unconventional because I am not a good planner. I'm just spontaneous and compulsive, but it works for me successfully 90% of the time. I write phone numbers in any page of my notebook but when the time comes that I need to look for that number, I know exactly what page I should leaf too.

Issues and intrigues are always present in my life (not in an artista kind of way--but you know what I mean). But I always end up okay. I always end up strong and victorious. I mean, I am still alive. And I feel that all those chaos worked in a way for me to be whole. Like I would not be complete without those things. Like it made me become the person that I am now. And that a major part of me would be missing if none of it happened to me.

But don't get me wrong. I have tried over and over again to be an organized person. To be more careful To be more vigilant of what I do. But I just end up failing all the time. So I have come to embrace chaos as a part of my life and used it to my advantage.

Now I don't even know if you understood my blog because it seems so disorganized because my thoughts are just flying away as I type the words, but I know in a way you also understand what I am talking about.

So you see, that's just me. And whether it's an asset or a liability on my part, I just have to learn to deal with it. And I guess admitting it right now on cyberspace and branding myself with having a site with such title is a sign that I have already dealt with it.

And I'm proud to carry my site title. I am proud to be orchestratedly chaotic. :)

P.S. There is no such word as "orchestratedly" but hey, that's me!

Orchestrated Chaos

Goodbye for now...

Takipsilim???

Looks like Christmas...I think.

Say what???

Friday night blues...

Twilight: My Verdict

Calling ALL REAL PEOPLE in REAL CEBU!!! RCTV wants you!

My new HAPPY thought =)

My new HAPPY thought =)

Forgive me but I just had to =p

Now we can say it: Thank God It's Friday because...

Here's to trying...

Searching for my muse (AGAIN)

The MANna who can't be moved

Theories

system error

So last night...

You know its really bad when...

I JUST WON A BET

DRY SPELL

Which life would you choose?

the evolution of 4b's

the evolution of 4b's

Define HAPPINESS

Rock a bye baby just kept rocking!

i've been taken

Friendster Shoutouts

Dr. Phil?

Yes, I am blessed :)

Sick Cycle Carousel--not the song

Another shop added under my window shopping list

Taming the addiction

RCTV goes "slightly" hollywood...

Part time camera man part time Sam Milby

Major mermaid rant!

A free ride on a manic Monday =)

short nothings

I did not know the present economic crisis would affect me this much!

I guess its time to buy some serious RAIN GEAR

If hearts could talk...

i heart The Freeman =)

JOBS i can never have...

Who ever expected this would happen to PANAY...

Bagyo nasad sa Cebu...

This is what happens when you're almost married to the PC...

Practice witing lang...hehe

I was tagged by joharra :) (SEE IF I TAGGED YOU)

Happy Independence Day?

Losing weight and losing money (NGANO MAHAL MAN MAGDIET OI?!)

See you next year, wah. =) (highly documented for you maw...hehe)

rebuilding bridges... =)

Bye maw...(1 down, 1 more to go--it just gets harder from here.)

www.deviantart.comit's like that, and that's the way it is. *sigh*

so that's why its CLICHE.

The INEVITABLE question...den den den den.

Can you believe I'm learning life lessons from a TV series?

mikerly

Another RAIN-inspired post :)

A little drama won't hurt...

And then there were three...

And then there were three...

mana oi.

ATTN. ANGELS: our fellow angel is now a MOMMY! :)

i am seeing STARS

PEDERASYON

MY 100TH BLOG ENTRY!!! (imagine that)

While David Cook was singing Mariah's Always be my Baby...

The End! (now, how to maintain…tsktsk_)

Show me your room and I'll tell you who you are...Right.

My Cheap Thrills

short term vs. long term

Mental block and more...

my version of a happy birthday ;)

Poll time!!!

After 5 long years...

"make a style on any occasion that elegant look you want..." (go figure)

i hate...

An Easter post (and more)

Enjoying Kalibo the OLD SCHOOL way

www.deviantart.comit's like that, and that's the way it is. sigh