Friendster Shoutouts

Sometimes I view profiles because of their shoutouts. If you've noticed, it is now a trend to have "emo" shoutouts in friendster. I have my own personal share of emo shoutouts. Sometimes a take a lyric from a song and place it as a shoutout. Sometimes I try to come up with my own--depending on the mood I am in.

My current shoutout is "Some battles are meant to be lost..." Cheesy? Why not. Hehe. I do believe though that there is an emo hiding in each and every person. And those shoutouts prove my point. Sometimes you see your tough, carefree friends sporting those emo shoutouts. And you realize--woah, is this really him/her?

Well the story behind my shoutout is pretty obvious. People always expect to win in all aspects of their lives. Ofcourse, who wouldn't? But failing is also inevitable. And there are many types of failures. And sometimes, instead of being in denial, it is better to accept things as they are. That way, you move on with your life and venture on another endeavor. And so the shoutout story---yeah, story of our lives.

Anyway here are a few shoutouts I copied from my friends. Pretty dramatic stuff, actually. Or I don't know, maybe all my friends are simply inlove. Judge for yourselves!

“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling inlove with you I had no control over.” --A classic case of falling inlove with a friend. :) I'm sure you have.

“I love you…I need you…to hold me every night” -- every night jed? hehe...joke lang. :) (ok, don't pretend your not envious)

“All I’m gonna have is all that you can give me And I’ll give right back Everything I have in me ‘cause nothing ever felt as right as this does right now.”-- True...every relationship should be give and take

"“Life lives, life dies. Life laughs, life cries. Life gives up and life tries..." -- Ug sa tagalog pa "Ang buhay ay parang gulong."

"im here without you....." -- Shoutout sa mga gibuwagan. hahaha

"it's all my fault!...i LOVE you,you HATE me... =(" -- scary. would never want this to happen to me

"even though we see one another a little often than no more they still keep those stringy thoughts of them attached to me for the sake of making me smile again. over and over again." -- reminiscing. :) we all do.

"MY LoVe FoR You iS a JouRNeY; STaRTiNG aT FoReVeR, aND eNDiNG aT NeVeR.." -- promises, promises... hehe kidding, but i hope you guys last. :)

"You cant break me coz it would only make me stronger.." -- AMEN!

"confused.." -- we all are sometimes :)

""in the lonely light of morning in the wound that would not heal is the bitter taste of losing everything that i've held so dear... i've fallen i have sunk so low i messed up better i should know so don't come round here and tell me i told you so.." -- awwww... :( nosebleed!!!

"..you're my favorite adventure..." -- so sweet. :)

"And I just can't pull myself away Under His Spell I can't break... I just can't stop ..." -- clearly enamored :)

"i was on the brink of disintegration and certain things have altered the landscape of my soul but there you are with your utmost love.. you lifted me up just when i thought i was about to lose the last strand of my sanity.." -- we all have our own personla saviors :)

How about you? What's your friendster shoutout? :)

Dr. Phil?

Just think of the 6-month theory. Your heartbroken now. Your miserable. You think your life is over. But try to look at yourslef 6 months from now. Do you still see yourself being miserable? I don't think so.

I was hanging out with some "kids" a while ago who were experiencing "love problems." Naturally since they thought I was older and (a bit) wiser, they asked me for advise. They are 19 year old guys who had problems with their girlfriends. One was in a long distance relationship and because of that his girlfriend broke up with him. They've been together for 2 years and 3 months. One has an "insensitive" girlfriend. He had to do all the adjustments to be able to make her girl happy.

So I kinda tried to give them a piece of my mind, My advise to the guy who was in an LDR is on the first paragraph. From experience? Well, not really. I actually surprised myself. Where were all those words of wisdom coming from? It was weird that they saw me as an "expert", when really, those were just advises I gathered from collaborative experiences of my friends. I've had my own share of experiences but I'm definitely far--way way far from being an expert. Well really, who is an expert on love? No one really is right, especially when you are the one faced with the situation. Its easier giving out advise when you're looking at the relationship as a third party. But really, when you're in it, when you are actually the one in the situation, do you also see what others see?

I'm glad I'm single because I do not have to undergo the pains and emotional stress of being in a relationship. I'm glad to be in the position of the "adviser". Im glad to not be in their place of being heartbroken and all.

And then it makes me wonder. When the time comes for me to be in a serious commitment, will I remember all the advise I gave out? Being single and listening to other people's experiences gives me time to prepare myself for what will be in store for me when I become in a relationship soon.

Soon. God-willing.

As for now, being a 22 year old single female has its perks. But sometimes, I just wonder how the next chapter is gonna be.

So yeah, to 19 year old A and 19 yr old B, you still have your whole life ahead of you. It is not the end of the world.

How about you? Do you follow your own advise?

Yes, I am blessed :)

The past few days made me realize two things:

1.) Some broken relationships have to stay broken.

2.) But some are also meant to be fixed.

I am thankful for the many great people that have took their time to make my life one of their stopovers. It is a known fact (cliche even) that people just come and go. Like it or not, its a thing that we all have to deal with. However the beauty of this cycle is that when certain people have to move along with their own journeys, a new set of people comes along and instantly refills their places. I clearly did not use the word "replace" because no one can replace anyone. They merely refill a missing area in our lives--and add some more even.

So going back to the two things that I have learned. Yup, some relationships (friendships/kinships/uyabships..whatever) are not constant. When you realize that despite every effort you put into something that will never work, you just have to accept that some things should just be left alone. Yes, some battles are really meant to be lost.

On the other hand, when a thing can still be fixed, it really can be fixed. I am happy with a recent reconciliation I had with a good friend. The silent war we had really had me bothered, but now after the reconciliation, not only do I feel better, I also feel vindicated.

Despite a recent re-letting go, I am also happy that there is also a welcoming back. God does work in mysterious ways, and I do not mind because I know that His plans are perfect for me. I've stopped questioning His will already. I've realized that once we surrender everything to Him, instead of feeling vulnerable, we become more invincible.

Sometimes it is so hard to look for the silver lining when all we focus on are the dark clouds, but looking at the brighter side of life is a hundred times better than staying in the dark.

Yes, despite the P8 fare, the weird weather, the war in Mindanao, the piling debts-- I am still blessed.

How about you? Have you counted your blessings lately?

Sick Cycle Carousel--not the song

You are my ever recurring sweet dream that always ends up as a nightmare...and when morning comes and when I have awaken, it is all gone. It was after all just a dream....

But I am not awake forever. Dawn will come, sleep will once again consume me.

And you will visit me again.

In a sweet dream.

In a nightmare.

Whichever. Whatever. Wherever.

And come morning, reality will once again awaken me.

But I cannot also stop the setting of the sun. I do not have the power. The ability.

My krypton. My sick cycle carousel.

Another shop added under my window shopping list

I was checking out People are People (and the *expensive* price tags on the clothes) and was just admiring the pop art designed jackets. I wanted to buy myself one but was also wondering if pink stars on white cloth would actually suit my 22-year old body. I decided it wasn't so I just went down and saw that a new store opened and they pretty much sold clothes that you could also see at People are People.

They had a lot of graphics tees and statement shirts and they actually had a jacket printed with big stars that actually seemed to suit my age bracket! I love the place! Their tees are actually much cheaper--around 200 bucks cheaper compared to P are P.



I especially loved these silver sneakers. I'm into anything metallic and this pair is now seriously on my wish list. Now I'm going chuvaness on you guys. hehe. I just couldn't take pictures inside so I just took pictures of their window display which was kinda tacky but still eye catching. :)

I love the tank top with the built in bling. :)

The store is called Terranova (I've never really heard of the store name before) and its located at the ground floor of the northwing right below People are People and beside Skin Food.

Come pay day, or whenever I will have money--that is, I'm sure to go there and grab those sneaks or that starry jacket. :)

How about you? What is your favorite store? (Doesn't matter if you actually shop there or you just window shop--like me! hehe)

Taming the addiction

I haven't been blogging for the longest time and if ever I have...I only shared the bits and pieces of whatever it was that was happening. I am still not in the mood to blog but I am just pushing myself so as not to let my desire for writing die down.

You see, blogging used to be an avenue for me where I could express whatever it is that was on my mind. It kinda still is. However, I lay low for a while because I was beginning to be addicted to it--yes to the extent that I would do it during work hours and think of what next to post and what not. I just kinda realized that when one of my officemates pointed it out to me.

"Naadik naman ka ana oi. Nabuang naka."

Which was kinda true. Kinda alarming also because there was almost a time when I had to concentrate on something else but my mind would just keep wishing that I was in front of the computer typing away what was currently on my mind.

And yes, cliche as it it is but it is also true that too much of everything is bad. So after a brief hiatus, I'm back just to say that I'm still here.

I'm not gonna let this site just die a natural death because it is too precious. It is nice looking back at past entries and recalling the moods, the emotions, the thoughts that were going on in my life at those particular times.

Right now, too many things have happened in my life but yakking away about all of them would be a bore.

One thing is for sure. Everything isn't so swell and dandy but over-all, life has been good.

AND YEAH---watch out for RCTV's 5&ALIVE events. :)